Slippery as ice!! Sydney’s dangerous sidewalks!!!

Posted on September 8, 2009 by Daisy

What’s more dangerous than walking on icy snow in wicked tall high heels?

photo by John Fraissinet’s under a CC license

Walking on SYDNEY SIDEWALKS in FLIP FLOPS!!!!

photo by Joseph Robertson under a CC license

No joke. I’m not kidding you. AT ALL. Walking down a sidewalk in Sydney’s CBD when it’s raining and you’re wearing normal flippy floppies (or thongs for all you Aussies) is MORE SLIPPERY than walking along an icy sidewalk in heels. And believe me – I have experience with both.

Normal sidewalks? No problem. The rain can’t get ME down. But a sidewalk in the city? or in the central business district? or just anywhere non-residential? WATCH OUT FOR YOUR LIFE!!! If you don’t have kick-A traction on the soles of your shoes – you are going DOWN – flat on your rear. Or if you have the powers of grace (like me hee hee) you’ll just slide around and look like you’re ice-skating for the first time.

photo by ??Tex Texin?? under a CC license.

I guess the good news is I get to feel like I’m dancing in the rain – a nice slippery smooth dance. and really … if it weren’t for my flailing arms trying to keep balance – I’d probably be mistaken for a fairytale ballerina.

photo by ME :)

Song by Tegan and Sara “Back in your head” (Tiesto remix)

Heart Skipped a Beat

Posted on September 7, 2009 by Daisy

The xx – “Heart Skipped a Beat.” (at the bottom of post)

I turned in my essay finally – 2.5 weeks late. That’s a whole heck of a lot. But it’s done. And it was done fairly well. It feels good.

This week I have two short animations to turn in as well as the launch and design of a new website. It’s exciting to have classes that produce more than just theoretical considerations. :) And I’m really excited about the new site!!!

FUNNY STORY OF THE DAY

North Sydney called me tonight. I haven’t spoken with him for a week. He started to tell me something and I interrupted and said, “I think I’m going to go to bed.” He was like, “What?” And then I was like, “Yeah – what time is it?” He answered, “7:00″ and I was like – “Oh nice – yeah I’m going to bed.” And then I did. 2 hours later when I woke up I realized what happened and sent an apology text – but seriously – LOL!!! I must have been SOOOOOoooooooo out of it. He replied to my text, “It’s ok hun, you sounded pretty sleepy.” LOL!

Aaaannnnnddddd now I’m going to go to bed again. Obviously I need it!!!

Hating my horoscope – I don’t want to put my heart on the line

Posted on August 15, 2009 by Daisy

Ok so my horoscope project is coming to – mostly – an end. I’m still checking it on a daily basis but I’m a little bitter at it right now.

A little bitter at a horoscope?? Yeah – that’s right. Why?? Because it’s out to get me. NO FOR REAL!

FIRST it has me use North Sydney as a distraction from CC+4. Which was actually a good thing because I need to let him go – completely.

BUT THEN I find that I really don’t want North Sydney as a distraction. He’s my friend and he lives in Australia and GUESS WHAT?? I’m content with things the way they are. AAANNNDDD the very same day I decided this I read my horoscope which said to be content with him as my friend. YES CRAZY!! I READ THAT AFTER I MADE MY DECISION!!!! It was like the FIRST day I didn’t have to TRY to make my horoscope come true.

So I moved on – and 2 days later would you ever guess that CC+4 – I don’t even want to talk about him. But I’m listening to the new song he sent me right now – and I’m – I don’t even know what – but I don’t appreciate my horoscope conveniently taking my life in a direction that might let CC+4 back in!!!!! Out of all the boys in my life – he scares me the most. No – not because HE is scary – but because liking him puts my heart on the line. The other boys? They’re safe. CC+4?? Not Safe.

Day 14

Ok we’ll stop here – with a few little lines from the song I sent him,

“Hands down, I’m too proud for love.

But with eyes shut, it’s you I’m thinking of. But how we move from A to B can’t be up to me cuz you don’t know who I was before you…

basically if you see a change in me – I’d be losing – so I just ignore you.

Cuz you’re not mine, not mine.

But maybe in time

I’ll tell you, I’m a little bit, a little bit, a little bit in love with you.

“I guess that I’m a little bit, a little bit, a little bit in love with you.”

Pic of the day – 12 and 13

Oh and HHEEEYYYY – my lil bro is back in the blogosphere. Life sucks – and tomorrow is the same …

My stupid horoscope day 8 – guess JUST FRIENDS is best

Posted on August 8, 2009 by Daisy

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Now playing: Akon – Beautiful
via FoxyTunes

Want to know what I like to call a BIG SUCKS?? When I decide I’m into a dude only to decide I’m going to follow my horoscope for a month only to find out that my horoscope says we should JUST BE FRIENDS!!! Say WHHHAAAATTT???

Yeah – that’s what it said. The EXACT words?? Beautiful Venus is quite active today in your 5th House of Love and Romance, possibly increasing your desire to spend quality time with someone you love. But there’s no need to add complex layers of attachment to a new or existing relationship, for the real gift of this transit is to bless you with the ability to live joyfully in the here and now.

Lame. But at the same time?? True. DANG IT!!!!

I DID spend quality time with North Sydney today. Want to know what we talked about?? My feelings for CC+4. Yes – go ahead and shake your fists at me – roll your eyes – whatever you must – but North Sydney kissed me the last time we hung out AND YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS?? He had another mini freak out and had to distance himself again in order to prevent himself from getting TOO close to me. Whatever. So since he was in super FRIEND zone he asked me to tell him the story about the cruise. So I did.

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Now playing: Kid Cudi – Day ‘N’ Nite (Crookers Remix)
via FoxyTunes

And THEN when I was FINALLY BRAVE ENOUGH

I told him that I can’t kiss him anymore if it’s going to make him withdraw from me. The fact is that I adore him – I care about our friendship and I LOVE spending time with him. And if he can’t do a relationship right now – ok. I’d rather be his friend with no kissing than have him be so scared of getting close.

AND THEN I ASKED HIM WHY HE’S SCARED OF GETTING CLOSE TO ME

And he couldn’t answer that one. So what did I do?? I kissed him goodbye – a good kiss. ;) And now he can think about it. But the fact of it is – my horoscope is true – I should enjoy the time I spend with him and not worry about anything more.

at least for now …

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Now playing: Hilary Duff – Reach Out (Bonus Track)
via FoxyTunes

Day 7/365 Reflections in the glass – a girl should always own a pearl necklace

AAANNNDDD Reflections in my eyes … click HERE for the original size – you can see the green grass and the blue sky in my eyes

The L word, Pics, CC+4, #3 and Love really IS a battlefield

Posted on July 13, 2009 by Daisy

It’s late at night and I’m going to overshare. It’s not that I don’t recognize that I should create rules for myself – like maybe “If you know you are tired and are aware that you could be admitting/confessing information that may be best to NOT share on a public website – DON’T!!” because I totally do. I KNOW I should be careful when I’m tired but at the same time when I’m tired I can’t be bothered to follow rules. GASP! Yeah yeah – I know – I’m in love with rules but tiredness makes me EXTRA apathetic.

WHAT DOES THIS MEAN FOR YOU?? *big smiley face*

It means I’m going to give you a debriefing on CC+4, #3 and that new Jordin Spark’s craptastic song that I downloaded because well – LOVE IS A BATTLEFIELD – oh and I’m also going to explain why I am at war.

THAT’S RIGHT! I’m AT WAR!!! … or at least my heart is …

LOVE IS A BATTLEFIELD

The song says “Don’t try to explain your mind I know what’s happening here. One minute it’s love and suddenly it’s like the battlefield. … I never meant to start a war.”

I’m trying to decide how to make this long story short – ah ha! OUTLINE!!!

#3 calls and quizzes me on my “sportiness”
I wonder why the BLEEP he’s telling me he wants to get me into the gym
#3 confesses he thinks I’m wonderful
I say, “Yeah except you think I’m fat.”
#3 FREAKS OUT!! He just wanted to spend quality time with me
I think “oopsie!”
#3 decides we don’t understand each other and wants to get to know the “real me”
#3 tries to upset me
I get upset
#3 drops the L bomb

#3 DROPS THE L BOMB!!!!!!

And then I say, “What? No I don’t think so. You can’t drop that on me right now while you’re PURPOSEFULLY TRYING TO MAKE ME UPSET!!”

He blah blah blahs some more and his phone dies. And I’m left bewildered.

And then I went boating and well – see for yourself. Me w/CC+4.

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A picture speaks a thousand words. And this pic in color – well – it speaks volumes. Volumes and volumes. It’s a great picture but I can’t go down this road again. It hurt too much last time. He crushed me when suddenly stopped logging onto skype, stopped responding to emails – he deserted me. And yet the feelings were instantly rekindled when I got home … but I don’t work that way.

I CAN’T TURN MY HEART OFF AND ON LIKE THAT!!! And seeing him again … I can’t … I can’t. I’m slipping – I have feelings for him. But …

I can’t. I really really can’t. My heart can’t take it. Not now – not when I’m supposed to leave in a week. Not when #3 is dropping the L bomb on me. Not when – well – not now.

My life is in Syndey now right? I live there. It’s where I’m supposed to be.

right ?

And I REALLY like #3.

So CC+4 – well … maybe I need to let him go. Figuratively of course. I need to tell my heart to let him go. I need to focus on what’s REAL. And although my feelings for him are most definitely real – CC+4 has not done anything to lead me to believe he has any intentions for long term. And if I can fully let him go – my heart will have no strings holding it back from #3.

I guess that settles things. I have feelings for #3. I have feelings for CC+4. #3 has feelings for me. CC+4 – ?? #3 wants a relationship. CC+4 and I live 8,000 miles apart. And now I just have to convince myself that spending time with CC+4 will do nothing but make the break in my heart more painful when I leave. It’s time to let go.

But … if that’s the case – why does my heart feel this way??

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