Loaded Gun, Epinephrine, Trigger Response, Adrenaline, Smoking Barrel

Picture by dp:

P is for Pistol 3

Epinephrine – a hormone triggered during the Fight-or-Flight-Response to a threat.  Adrenaline – another name for Epinephrine.

Elevated heart rate, clear mind, every muscle is ready.  It only takes a few words.

Words.

Part of the beauty of psychology is its revealing nature.  Eventually, the cracks in one’s bullet proof vest are discovered.  Hidden secrets, suppressed trauma can only stay protected for so long – and once a bullet makes it past our shields and armor, its full-on psychological warfare.

A few words and your mind and/or body experience danger.  It’s a trigger.  Your trigger.  You control it as best you can.  You wear your armor. Your walls are thick but sometimes you are caught off guard.  And then you realize you can’t escape your past.

Once a victim, always in fear.

I think I’m haunted and most DEFINITELY sleep deprived. (Sculpture by the Sea Pics)

This evening I needed to kill some time before bed.   I went on a little walk to try and clear some of the noise in my head.  I ran into this:

“OOH!” I exclaimed to my flatmate Sam.  ”Look he killed himself.”
Sam looked at me quizzically.  ”Daisy he’s just floating – trapped in a box.”
“Oh.”

When we ran into a bunch of nooses (Sculpture by the Sea 2009 is finally here!) Sam only saw rope.
Hmmm …. They sure were KNOTTED like nooses!!!

man on cliff

And THEN we ran into this guy.  And I was really digging him.
He’s cute – unexpected – unobtrusive.
Even though he is ABOUT TO KILL HIMSELF!!!
Umm hello??  Those are some dangerous rocks to almost be jumping off!!
Though strangely Sam only saw a man gazing at the vast ocean

horse
I wasn’t a big fan of this one.  Never have been into dead zombies charging from hell to kill people.
Would you ever guess that Sam kind of liked it??  He saw a pretty pony!

And last but not least – DEMONS (and no I did NOT adjust the color of this picture!!)

demons

Yeah – DEMONS.  And they were perched next to a tree filled with massive blair witch project wanna bee creepy tree things.
Sam says they were just beehives – next to garden sprites.

And you what I say to that??

WHATEVER!!

Except I can’t help but thinking … maybe I need some sleep.

Online Dating – Relationship Status Update and pics of bridge

Online Dating -

It’s like I’m on the Bachelor AND the Bachelorette at the SAME TIME!!!!

And that about sums it up.  Do I need to say more?  Probably not.  But I will anyway.  :)

I’ve been looking into online dating as part of my studies on network society and digital culture (it’s what I’m getting my Master’s in) OMGOSH!!!  It’s like WORSE than real dating and I hate real dating.   So there you have it.  Sure you get anonymity (KIND OF) and you can share feelings without the physical stuff getting in the way (KIND OF) but seriously – at least if you start dating a dude in REAL LIFE you can be fairly certain that if you’re talking everyday and seeing each other every week – he PROLLY doesn’t have time and isn’t doing that with anyone else.

But in the DIGITAL WORLD??

Watch out!  You can have 15 concurrent emotional email affairs going AT ONCE!!! You think you’re getting close to someone – but they’re just feeding the same lines to you and to every other girl they think is hot or decent- depending on the dude.  NOT COOL!

Oh AAANNNDDD people only post their top pics of themselves – I think there should be a rule that you must post a MINIMUM of like 30 pics.  3 pics?  6 pics?  10 pics?  You can’t get an idea of what a person looks like from that.

OH AND BIG NEWS – DAISY CHANGED HER RELATIONSHIP STATUS ON FB!!!!

As of today I am OFFICIALLY listed as IN A RELATIONSHIP on Facebook.  I know Mom – this is going to come as a bit of a shock to you considering we talked last night and I told you I wasn’t dating anyone – HOWEVER – I decided to make my commitment to my dogs OFFICIAL.  Oh yes.  I’m in an open relationship with Duchess and Chloe.  They even have their own facebook profile!

Don’t act surprised.

And just be glad Lily Chocolate Cupcake doesn’t have one – cuz guess what??  That snobby kitty has come crawling back (and of course I took her right back in!!! Aw – I LOVE my little Lily Chocolate Cupcake!!! – but not as much as Duchess and Chloe.)

Here’s 2 pictures:

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Oh and CC+4 befriended Duchess and Chloe on Facebook.  I don’t know why.  Maybe it was auto-generated??  But he left them a comment on their page – it’s really cute of him.  But I can’t be thinking things like that.  Stupid boyz.