Day 4 – Some much needed ME time

Posted on August 4, 2009 by Daisy

TODAY’s horoscope

You may become less confident as the day wears on, especially if you must show up at a big social event. But if you are able to steal away for a while, then you can emerge from your mini-retreat revitalized and ready to go back out for another round of battles with the status quo. Don’t be afraid of your own power, even if you think it’s wiser to wait for the right time to act.

Annnddd yahoo.com’s said something about taking time for myself and writing a list of “to dos”….

LESS CONFIDENT

I was pretty confident about life this morning but as luck would have it (or more likely as my subconscious would have it because I had already read the above horoscope) I DID lose confidence in myself as the day wore on. WHAT?? Why would I ever do a thing like that?

Prolly because I realized I’m in some suck classes, the camera adds 10 lbs, I stuttered on TV today and I ran into TWO professors who gave me the pity look because they know about my stupid special consideration and swine flu last semester.

Yeah – that could be why.

Some ME Time

I was kind of excited that my horoscope encouraged a little ME time today but I wasn’t sure how I was going to fit it in – I had a full schedule today!! After my first class I decided to skip class #2 because it sucks and I’m going to change it for a different one anyway … and I had a choice:

BUS OR WALK??

WALK of course!! Why? Because walking is ME time!! YAY!!! So I walked from Uni to Central and did some thinking – lots of thinking. Mostly about the pavement, the cars driving by, the hotties in business suits – but ALSO about Uni, my list of things to do – and ok – that was about all. Unless you count trying to decide whether or not to text/sms No. Syd and tell him about my day’s adventures as thinking – if you do? well then I thought about that a lot too.

I decided to text him – and got no reply. And not that I’m getting ready to throw in the towel or anything but seriously – EVERY TIME I DECIDE I LIKE A GUY IT ENDS WITHIN LIKE A WEEK. So I wouldn’t be terribly surprised if the Love Gods out there put a jinx on this whole thing – aw well. Time will tell.

No backing out now!!

Even if things don’t work with No. Syd guess what? I meant what I said about the taking a chance thing – no more negative nancy from me about relationships. I am ready to put myself on the line – it may take a REALLY LONG time before I find someone that I want to commit to – it may take a REALLY LONG time before I start dating again … but I’m not going to be actively AGAINST it like I was. In fact! I even replied to Adorable Boy’s (he was the reason I went on the cruise where I met CC+4) email today. He wants to come visit. I told him that’d be great. And you know what will happen if Adorable Boy comes out to visit? hee hee. SPARKS WILL FLY! :)

I HATE TOMORROW’s HOROSCOPE

I just want everyone to know that I already hate tomorrow’s horoscope. WHY?? Because it is going to require super extra effort on my part to make it come true. The task?? Find meaning in the mundane things you do. And after the 2 page long TO DO list I made today of MUNDANE SUCK THINGS TO DO!!! Tomorrow is DEFINITELY going to be a challenge.

But the joy is in the challenge right?? :)

Day 3 – I’ve got my relationship priorities all wrong

Posted on August 3, 2009 by Daisy

HOROSCOPE Day 3

Others may seem particularly critical of your work today, yet you could still learn from what they say. Unfortunately, your first impulse might be to reject their advice because of your own issues of self-esteem. But if you can get over your insecurity, you’ll see that the new information can help you accomplish your goals. This is not about competition; if you win, then everyone else wins, too

Making it happen

Living the reclusive life that I lead – it’s difficult to get helpful criticism on a day that I spend completely alone. Sure I went for a walk around Bondi – got a couple kms in to be healthy – yes I texted a few people and even spoke with my FM on the phone when SURPRISE the landlords came by and caught me pop lock and droppin it to some hip hop wearing only my undies!!! AAANNNDDDD I needed to know how long they were going to stand in front of my window so that I could muster up the courage come out from hiding under the covers. Yeeeaaahhhh…. but other than that – I was pretty alone the whole day.

So how could I make my horoscope come true today?? Well short of ASKING for criticism (which then becomes feedback) I decided to pick up one of my lovely self-help books and find out what I’m doing wrong. Turns out – it’s quite a bit!!

WHAT DO THE CRITICS SAY?

The critics say I rush into physical closeness and don’t commit or rely on my “partners” enough.

RELATIONSHIPS ARE A BALANCING ACT

The experts agree there are 5 important areas of progression within a relationship and you should keep these fairly balanced.

Knowledge of each other (getting to know one another)
Trust
Reliance
Commitment
Physical Intimacy

Want to know why I always score a major FAIL in relationships? Because I jump straight to building #5. Having an abundance of #5 creates a blind eye to #1 and #2 and as a result I am too scared to do #3 or #4. Pretty messed up – but if you read the book it makes total sense.

So yeah … today was a bit less eventful but mostly because I’m too lazy to type up more – I really did learn a lot about destructive patterns of behavior, using your heart AND your mind to make relationship choices and yeah – my horoscope came true again today.

TOMORROW – I’m supposed to take a little mini me-break in the afternoon and write down some “to do” items. I wish I weren’t so tired – but hopefully tomorrow I can give you a full update. :)

Day 2 – horoscope challenge – Is love worth it?

Posted on August 2, 2009 by Daisy

Yesterday my horoscope told me to not let the fear of failure prevent me from taking the next step in a plan. “Plan” is such an ambiguous word so I decided to interpret it to my advantage. YAY!! I mean – seriously – how can I make my horoscope come true without a little creative interpretation??

I thought about what plan I should make ALL DAY and then as I was talking to my friend Okay Corral I realized I DO have a plan and HAVE had one for quite some time. The plan??

Operation Take a Chance On Love

Remember how I didn’t give many details about how I was totally into CC+4 and then all of the sudden I was back in Australia in the arms of a former flame?? *Big smile* That’s because I knew I needed to have closure with CC+4 before I came back. Why?

Because I want to take a chance

I am finally ready. And I can’t take a chance – or even see how things turn out with someone down here if I’m still holding onto CC+4. Okay Corral (a friend) said that love isn’t worth it. He suggested that I am being foolish taking such a huge risk just for the sake of an experience and an opportunity to grow.

While talking to my friend I discovered how important love is in my life

I watched my fingers type back to him that love is worth all of the heartache in the world. Love is the hope, the building block in our hearts. When we truly love we keep that bit of that love FOREVER. It stays with us. It’s always there.

I know when I love someone when I can FEEL in my heart that they are there. Mom, Dad, my brothers, my nephew, my nieces, my sister-in-law, Matty Matt – Crysta – North Sydney – the list can go on – but I LOVE these people. And I can feel each of their imprints on my heart. That’s right – I can FEEL it. They hold a spot in my heart.

Loving people puts your heart at greater risk of being hurt – but I wouldn’t trade the experiences I’ve had or the love I feel to spare myself future heartache. My heart broke into a trillion pieces the day my brother died but I would rather have lived, loved and lost him than to never have known him at all.

And as I was explaining this to Okay Corral I realized I didn’t need insight from someone else today – I just needed someone else to help me hear myself.

I heard what I had to say – and I’m glad.

Love is worth it. I will probably end up with a broken heart as things progress or don’t progress with North Sydney – but it will be a growing process – a learning experience and I expect that it will ultimately be worth it.

TOMORROW I’m supp0osed to receive criticism that will help me. Hope it does!!!

Day two -

Horoscope Month Day 1 – battlefield or dancing??

Posted on August 2, 2009 by Daisy

Oh get ready for this!!!

Daisy’s horoscope came true!!

- mostly. :) And what does that mean? Cue soap opera music please – but make it COOL music – like with a hip beat k? Thanks!! It means that I have a little soap opera blissness for y’allz.

INTENSE BATTLEFIELD

Keeping my NONCOMPETITIVE goal in mind today I was delighted to speak to an old friend on IM this morning. We have often misunderstood each other – in like full blown semantic WAR – because our articulation choices are very, very VERY different – but what do you know?? Oh yeah – we figured it all out. NO JOKE! And I look forward to chillaxing with him soon. :) YAY!!!

DEEP FEELINGS OF MAGICAL INTENSITY

Have I mentioned lately how much I adore my Australian BFF? Did I also mention that he was the leading star of the ORIGINAL Days of My Life in Bondi 2026?? Well you can imagine that our on and off again “non-platonic inclinations” lead to a very – umm – confusing relationship. Sometimes I get a kiss on the lips as a greeting (ok I always get one) and sometimes I DON’T get a kiss goodbye?? What?? Sometimes we have plans to spend ALL DAY together – other times it’s like, “ok I’ll meet you here and drop you off after.” Hmm … complicated.

But it’s ok because I ADORE him. And he tolerates me (heehee) ;)

So there I was – sitting at his computer helping him fix something when he has me get up so he can sit down.

He pulls me into his lap

I’m thinking – hmm – ok – wow he’s sure making a lot of eye contact with me. I mean – I’m like IN HIS LAP RIGHT NEXT TO HIS FACE!!! Does he NEED to be staring at me? NOPE. But I like it (clear my throat) I mean EEEW GROSS HE HAS COOTIES!!!

The eye contact continues. Hmm – wow ok we’re definitely making a LOT of eye contact. In fact – I don’t think he’s looked at that computer screen – AT ALL. Is he going to kiss me? But … but … didn’t he just tell me he doesn’t want complicated?? Didn’t he tell me only YESTERDAY that Captain Charisma would be a good “phone-a-friend?”

I look away.

I look back.

Hazel eyes looking deep into mine. I adjust my position so that I can look at him directly. I’m nervous. Am I ready for complicated??

He takes a hand, traces it down my back and then pulls me close. WHICH IS REALLY CLOSE BECAUSE UMM HELLO?? I was already sitting on his lap!!! I look up at him and as his lips touch mine I’m swept off my feet as if I’m as light as a feather – and I am SO not as light as a feather – but there I am – in his arms, whisked off my seat ;) quite literally and want to know what happens next?? Complicated goes out the window. Probably the same open window that was letting in the softest sea breeze.

The next thing I know we’re on the love sac staring at the harbour, cuddling.

YEAH CUDDLING!

This is a G rated blog :)

We spend the rest of the day together and he kisses me goodbye.

When will I see him again?

I have no idea … but day one of the horoscope was pretty fun!!! (oh and don’t forget to head over to ScoMan’s blog and see how day one of his horoscope month ended up :)

TOMORROW

Including others in your plans is a good idea now, for it will ultimately make your day more efficient and also more fun. A close friend or partner could be holding an important key to your future, and if you don’t involve anyone else, you’ll never know what might have been possible. Don’t let an old fear of failure sabotage your current dreams by discouraging you before you even start.

SAWEET!!! Tomorrow I am making PLANS!!! Wahoo!!! :)

OH AND I ALMOST FORGOT!!! As inspired by AussieErin I’m starting my very own 365 Day Project :) Here’s day one – I only get to submit one – I chose the bottom one. :)

Horoscopes every day for a month – letting others dictate my adventures

Posted on July 31, 2009 by Daisy

I’ve been wanting to do this for a long time – and as they say – there’s no time like the present! :)

How does it work?

Well – I’m going to have my horoscope emailed and tweeted to me everyday in August (in addition to the horoscope on my lovely myyahoo.com page. Then I’m going to take the advice and see if I can MAKE what they say happen – every day – for one whole month.

Want to play along?

That’d be sweet!!! But I understand if you’re not interested. IF YOU DO follow along but don’t want to blog about it – please share in the comments – otherwise I’m sure I’ll read it on your blog (that is if anyone else is crazy enough to do this with me.) :)

HOROSCOPE – AUGUST 1 – Pisces

“Uncontrollable passions could blast to the surface today, turning every interaction into an intense battlefield. Or your deep feelings could lead you into a magically profound dance with someone you love. Either way, this is not a lighthearted time, for it seems as if everyone is playing for keeps. Naturally, no one wants to lose, but the only way to assure a positive outcome for all involved is to change the rules of the game to make it noncompetitive”

SOUNDS EXCITING!!!!! I can’t WAIT to see how this plays out with my interaction with North Sydney this afternoon … or maybe even with Captain Charisma later in the evening!!

To be continued … end of day tomorrow – I’ll let you know how my horoscope goes.

KEYWORDS/PHRASES

I need to maintain a NON-competitive spirit and respect that my passions are at full height (roll my eyes.) But the encouraging part? Dance with someone I love? I don’t see North Sydney as the dancing type … and Captain Charisma? I doubt it. OOOH maybe tomorrow will be an explosive battlefield or someone new!! Can’t wait to find out!!!

1, 2, 3… ELEVEN Petals

a petal for every passion, life is just one of them

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