Hating my horoscope – I don’t want to put my heart on the line

Posted on August 15, 2009 by Daisy

Ok so my horoscope project is coming to – mostly – an end. I’m still checking it on a daily basis but I’m a little bitter at it right now.

A little bitter at a horoscope?? Yeah – that’s right. Why?? Because it’s out to get me. NO FOR REAL!

FIRST it has me use North Sydney as a distraction from CC+4. Which was actually a good thing because I need to let him go – completely.

BUT THEN I find that I really don’t want North Sydney as a distraction. He’s my friend and he lives in Australia and GUESS WHAT?? I’m content with things the way they are. AAANNNDDD the very same day I decided this I read my horoscope which said to be content with him as my friend. YES CRAZY!! I READ THAT AFTER I MADE MY DECISION!!!! It was like the FIRST day I didn’t have to TRY to make my horoscope come true.

So I moved on – and 2 days later would you ever guess that CC+4 – I don’t even want to talk about him. But I’m listening to the new song he sent me right now – and I’m – I don’t even know what – but I don’t appreciate my horoscope conveniently taking my life in a direction that might let CC+4 back in!!!!! Out of all the boys in my life – he scares me the most. No – not because HE is scary – but because liking him puts my heart on the line. The other boys? They’re safe. CC+4?? Not Safe.

Day 14

Ok we’ll stop here – with a few little lines from the song I sent him,

“Hands down, I’m too proud for love.

But with eyes shut, it’s you I’m thinking of. But how we move from A to B can’t be up to me cuz you don’t know who I was before you…

basically if you see a change in me – I’d be losing – so I just ignore you.

Cuz you’re not mine, not mine.

But maybe in time

I’ll tell you, I’m a little bit, a little bit, a little bit in love with you.

“I guess that I’m a little bit, a little bit, a little bit in love with you.”

Pic of the day – 12 and 13

Oh and HHEEEYYYY – my lil bro is back in the blogosphere. Life sucks – and tomorrow is the same …

8/365 – blah blah blah blah blah

Posted on August 9, 2009 by Daisy

I had a really fun day today – did the horoscope thing – but am now exhausted and going to bed without writing about it. :) Here’s the pic for the day:

8/365

I edited the statue for your G rated eyes. I took this pic because I was like “OH HOW CUTE!! They’re KISSING!! And I’m wearing a kissing necklace!!! YAY!! Hip hop hooray!!” And then I got home and my EYES ALMOST POPPED OUT OF MY HEAD!!! Little did I know this STUPID STATUE was x rated!!! KIDS WALK PAST THIS PLACE!!!!

In other news – that is THE MOST CONTROVERSIAL NECKLACE I OWN!!! I thought it was ADORABLE and then AFTER I purchased it Lou and I noticed the sign – it read “kissing cousins.” omgosh omgosh omgosh.

THEY’RE NOT COUSINS!!!!!

My stupid horoscope day 8 – guess JUST FRIENDS is best

Posted on August 8, 2009 by Daisy

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Now playing: Akon – Beautiful
via FoxyTunes

Want to know what I like to call a BIG SUCKS?? When I decide I’m into a dude only to decide I’m going to follow my horoscope for a month only to find out that my horoscope says we should JUST BE FRIENDS!!! Say WHHHAAAATTT???

Yeah – that’s what it said. The EXACT words?? Beautiful Venus is quite active today in your 5th House of Love and Romance, possibly increasing your desire to spend quality time with someone you love. But there’s no need to add complex layers of attachment to a new or existing relationship, for the real gift of this transit is to bless you with the ability to live joyfully in the here and now.

Lame. But at the same time?? True. DANG IT!!!!

I DID spend quality time with North Sydney today. Want to know what we talked about?? My feelings for CC+4. Yes – go ahead and shake your fists at me – roll your eyes – whatever you must – but North Sydney kissed me the last time we hung out AND YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS?? He had another mini freak out and had to distance himself again in order to prevent himself from getting TOO close to me. Whatever. So since he was in super FRIEND zone he asked me to tell him the story about the cruise. So I did.

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Now playing: Kid Cudi – Day ‘N’ Nite (Crookers Remix)
via FoxyTunes

And THEN when I was FINALLY BRAVE ENOUGH

I told him that I can’t kiss him anymore if it’s going to make him withdraw from me. The fact is that I adore him – I care about our friendship and I LOVE spending time with him. And if he can’t do a relationship right now – ok. I’d rather be his friend with no kissing than have him be so scared of getting close.

AND THEN I ASKED HIM WHY HE’S SCARED OF GETTING CLOSE TO ME

And he couldn’t answer that one. So what did I do?? I kissed him goodbye – a good kiss. ;) And now he can think about it. But the fact of it is – my horoscope is true – I should enjoy the time I spend with him and not worry about anything more.

at least for now …

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Now playing: Hilary Duff – Reach Out (Bonus Track)
via FoxyTunes

Day 7/365 Reflections in the glass – a girl should always own a pearl necklace

AAANNNDDD Reflections in my eyes … click HERE for the original size – you can see the green grass and the blue sky in my eyes

Day 6 – Dreams for the day

Posted on August 7, 2009 by Daisy

Today my horoscope told me to dream. Apparently TODAY I am the leading lady in my own movie (roll my eyes – I’m the leading lady EVERY DAY ;) ) and I’m supposed to imagine my life TODAY without any restrictions or bars holding me back. And as much fun as it would be to completely dream my life away – the truth is there are only a few things I’d love right now.

My family, dogs and Matty Matt all living in Australia with me.
My painting supplies, a nice oven, my piano, and that really warm blanket my mom made for me.
To get into the Arts classes I REALLY REALLY want to take (fingers crossed – I find out tomorrow)
My car to be in Australia
AAANNNDDD maybe a new digital slr
oh and to have the men in my life stop being wishy washy :)
oopsie! also I’d like my space heater to stop blowing cold air

Oh my – that’s a very simple list isn’t it? I suppose that means I should be VERY grateful. :) I think tomorrow I’ll be much more movie-star-ish. I’m either going out with North Sydney or I was invited by one of #3′s friends on a kinda “date.” HAHA! I guess what they say about boys is true. Sharing is caring. (roll my eyes.)

6/365

Letter from my Conscience – Horoscope Day #I can’t believe I’ve done it for this long #1

Posted on August 5, 2009 by Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Hello! It’s your conscience here – but you PROLLY already knew that. It’s just … well … I hate to interrupt your normal bloginess but … well … we need to talk. You know your little horoscope project? The one that you were like, “OMGOSH THIS IS SO SUPER EXCITING – I’m going to do it for A WHOLE MONTH.” Yeah – that project.

I’m just a conscience so I won’t tell you this was a great idea in theory but a crap idea at the beginning of a semester – no no – I’ll just stick to what is RIGHT and what is WRONG. Ok ok – actually I’m just going to stick with what is WRONG.

Umm Hello?? Who woke up on the crabby side of the bed today?? And then blared “hot dog” by Limp Bizkit on repeat because it’s a REALLY angry song?? I know – you listened to Linkin Park, NIN and Papa Roach too … but you get what I’m saying.

Today’s task was ” … is not about escaping from your daily routine; it’s about developing a more spiritual approach to what you must do.”

Now tell me Daisy – do you think Limp Bizkit and hearing the F word screamed like 40 kajillionbillion times helped you develop a more spiritual approach??

Moving on … I was proud of you for answering the phone when No. Sydney called – but you could have handled the fact THAT HE ONLY CALLED YOU BECAUSE HE NEEDED TECHNICAL WEB HELP better. Did you REALLY need to switch to depressing music and listen to THAT on repeat too??

I think you went into today’s horoscope with a negative attitude (for proof please see your post yesterday) AAANNNDDD I think you shouldn’t do that again. You’re never going to achieve the random wisdom/growth you were hoping a project like this could provide give you if you HAVE A BAD ATTITUDE!!!

SHAPE UP!!

Sincerely yours,

~Your Conscience

HOLY CRAP is my conscience mean or what?? So to help me snap out of my funk – I went to class and really tried to EXPERIENCE class. My teacher is crazy – I took lots of notes – and I even played a game of Hangman – why? Because life is about living, loving and laughing :) And living means being PRESENT – so I was present in class – and felt the feelings of the first day of school, noticed my friends in class, remembered what it felt like to be in high school. And when I took a bathroom break and had to walk down a long corridor which was TWENTY DEGREES COLDER than my classroom – then walk down a weird dingy and poorly lit staircase to get to the bathroom … and when inside of the bathroom it was dark, old and there were small child sized watering cans in every stall … and the water to wash up was placed at a level below my knees … I experienced it. I imagined the ghosts haunting the halls – I shivered – I lived.

Today did have a rough start. And to be honest – it’s had a rough ending as well. But I FELT my day today. And as much as my conscience would like to say I did a half-assed job – at the end of the day I think experiencing life at a heightened sense of perception/observation/feeling surprisingly satisfies my horoscope.

Today – I LIVED

for better and for worse.

Day 5/365

1, 2, 3… ELEVEN Petals

a petal for every passion, life is just one of them

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