Facades, authenticity, presentation and you – or me

If you have been following this blog and have been reading between the lines it will come as no surprise to you that I suck at life right now.  :) Yes I put a smiley face there.  Why?  Because there’s no point frowning about it is there?  Plus it’s a bit amusing to think about the fact that someone could “suck at life” – I realize the inherent EVERYTHING in that statement mmm kay?  But I chose to use the statement anyway.  Because I do suck at life right now – but my presentation is still up to par.

It occurred to me that the only people who would know I suck at life right now are people who caught the few confessional blogs recently or the few friends I’ve let in on it.  Other than that and well – my international student adviser and my teachers at school (who OMGOSH- AGH!!!) – no one would have any clue.

Someone questioned my authenticity because I appear to have everything under control when I FEEL as if nothing is under control.  This really bothered me. Does it make me less authentic because I choose not to tell everyone I meet  that my sky is falling?  Does it make me less authentic if I maintain a certain level of vanity when my inner life is scattered and chaotic?  Why do I have to LOOK like a disaster just because my life is one?  And why the H.E.DOUBLE do I need to act like a disaster if I have personal troubles?  I don’t!!!

Life is what you make it.  I can control SOME things.  Other things are outside of my control.  The things I CAN control – I do.  Why does that make me not authentic?

Ok so I maintain appearances.  I participate in the normal life activities.  I still LAUGH and SMILE and crack jokes and go to parties even though I’ve cried more in this past few months than I have in the past year.  THAT DOESN’T MAKE ME FAKE!  It just means I’m a fighter and I’m fighting to be happy.

I believe our thoughts follow our actions.  And even when my thoughts are less than happy I still try and live a normal, happy, active life.  Why is that such a crime?

What do you think?  To be authentic do you need to ACT depressed when you FEEL depressed?  Is it ok to look good when you’re not feeling well?  Does it make you fake to seem happy, in control, and on top of the world when you don’t always feel that way?

I think the next person who questions my authenticity because they ASSUMED my life is perfect and they ASSUMED I’ve had a trial-free past just because I choose to be happy and I LOOK happy – I’m going to tell them to shove it.  Just because THEY can’t maintain appearances when their life is going to pieces doesn’t mean that I have to follow suit.  :P

Sometimes I like to play Devil’s Advocate

Sometimes I like to play Devil’s Advocate. And sometimes I like to throw the words of well-respected “peace practitioners” back in their faces – especially when they are hypocrites.

I’m not going to sit back and be brain-washed. I’m also not going to pretend that their very prejudiced teachings are peaceful and tolerant.

I may not be PRO-religion myself – but I will not listen to them preach about the inferiority of those who are religious. Why am I the only person in my classes who seems to understand that I’m in a very prejudiced and racist course? I DON’T EVEN WANT TO STUDY PEACE and I can see that they are super hypocrites. So why, why, why can’t these students – who claim they are passionate about peace … WHY CAN’T THEY SEE IT?


Second of Five Reflections

We discussed the three types of violence (e.g. structural, cultural, and direct) in class this week. I would like to return to the example in my first reflection as the foundation for this entry. With the help of my readings and the discussions in class, I have been able to look at the previous experience in more depth and with a different light.

Today I wish not to dwell on the conflicts my experience presented, but on how the lack of protection for religious privacy can lead to religious discrimination and prejudice which is a form (according to definitions by Galtung and classroom discussions) of cultural violence. I also believe that the way in which religion is discussed and criticized by Galtung breeds discrimination and ironically encourages exactly that which he wishes to abolish.

As the world becomes increasingly more educated and the horrors which religions have inspired are brought to light, it is impossible to dismiss the cloud of reasonable doubt hovering around the likelihood that organized religion was intended to be more than merely an institution of control, fear and war. Put more simply, I understand the arguments that organized religion is corrupt.

It becomes exceedingly more difficult to find an academic who carries a firm belief in a religion. How can you dismiss the repeated violence? How can you dismiss the horrors? The attempts at Genocide? The millions of deaths in the name of a Higher Power? All caused by religion!

An example of how pervasive the attitude that religion is wrong within the world of academia is the religion class I attended. There were only two students in the class who professed to have any belief in religion or in a God. Each and every other student took the time to not only announce their superiority in intelligence for rejecting religion (and I make this as a statement of fact) but made a point to explain that they achieved this “new intellectual plane” through personal growth and knowledge (signaling that those who do not share their views are not as advanced or informed.) One girl even stated that she feels “sorry for Christians because they are so in the dark.” Another explained during the break that if you are intelligent and logical, at all, that you MUST discount religions and see them for what they “really” are.

I have no major qualms with these opinions. I personally have doubts with regard to the legitimacy of organized religions myself. The new trend in developed countries is to attach oneself to Atheism or Agnosticism. But for the sake of playing the devil’s advocate and in light of my new understanding of cultural violence, I would like to argue that this belief system (like any belief system can) has created a new culture, a very limited, and incredibly prejudiced culture – which by definition can cause cultural violence.

The deep-rooted yet unstated belief in the superiority and advancement of those who can see religion without rose-colored glasses inherently fosters the belief that those who choose to follow a religion are in the dark, not as intelligent, and/or inferior. A great portion of the academic world, in general terms and by nature, breeds a culture of contempt for religion. This breeds discrimination. But instead of discriminating based on religion (which is arguably one of the reasons religions are corrupt) they discriminate based on religion under the guise of “intellectual advancement.” You are either agnostic or atheist or you are not smart.

Galtung clearly indicates that religion is a form of cultural violence. It’s his first example in our readings. He makes valid and well-founded arguments about how religions create rationalizations for inequality, racism, prejudices and discrimination.

He does not offer religion any credit for their core belief systems or for their foundation of culture apart from their corrupt leaders. There is no doubt that Galtung rejects organized religion nor is there doubt that he wishes to expose religion as an institution that should be abolished in order to establish positive peace.

By creating this definition of religion, Galtung sets up his own class system. Those who follow a religion vs. those who see it as a corrupt institution needing to be abolished. I think he explains (albeit unintentionally) the danger of this better than I could.

“The lines may no longer be drawn between God, the Chosen, the Unchosen, and Satan. Modernity would reject God and Satan but might demand a distinction between Chosen and Unchosen; let us call them Self and Other.
…A steep gradient is then constructed, inflating, even exalting, the value of Self; deflating, even debasing, the value of Other. At that point, structural violence can start operating. ”

Galtung claims that “modernity” equals rejecting God and Satan. So those who DO believe in God and Satan have not reached the same level of intellectualization. The Chosen now become those who are atheist and agnostic, those who are intellectually advanced enough to see religion as corrupt. The Chosen become the ones who have grown in wisdom enough to be able to change the world. The “other” or “unchosen” become those who are religious. Those who are not as advanced (according to his own definition) and those who (as long as they hold onto their religious beliefs) do not carry the power to create positive peace.

Galtung himself cautions about the dangers of firmly held beliefs of “self” and “other” which I argue can be applied to his disdain for religion. “…And certain tenets of belief in modernization, development, progress are seen as apodictic; not to believe in them reflects badly on the non-believer, not on the belief.” To believe in religion, according to the teachings of Galtung, can be seen as not believing in modernization and this, he admits, (within the structure of cultural violence) can reflect badly on the non-believer.

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violence can absolutely be fueled by religion. Creating a “superior” culture of people who reject religion can also fuel cultural violence. And a belief system that defines Self (e.g. agnostic) as superior to Other (e.g. religious) fosters inequality which can result not only in cultural but also in structural violence. This anti-religion culture, which often falls under the sheltering arm of academia, provides rationalizations for this Self vs. Other, anti-religion belief system.

Galtung, in describing exactly what is wrong with religion and ideologies, explains perfectly what he is doing himself: fostering, rationalizing and excusing a form of cultural violence.

I WAS discriminated against during the classroom break after announcing my religious orientation. Students DID say I was a member of a “crazy sect” and whispered about it in front of my face. I was immediately rejected for my belief. The culture of anti-religion that Galtung encourages may be just as dangerous as the culture of religion which he abhors.

Hate is wrong – all around. EXCEPT it’s ok to hate the United States.

I don’t think the USA is perfect. I understand there are logical criticisms of the way our country is run. And if someone has a problem with America – ok. You probably have good reasons.

That’s not what this is about. This post is because I’m sick of people preaching tolerance for everyone EXCEPT Americans. If you preach hate or intolerance in any form – even if it’s only for anglo-America – you are NOT PREACHING PEACE. Stop pretending to be peaceful and tolerant unless you are ready to be tolerant to EVERYONE, including Americans.

Today an Australian girl in one of my classes said, “I feel bad that cultural sensitivity in this country covers everyone but Americans.”

I agree.

The fact of the matter is that the world, in general, preaches tolerance for everyone but Americans. The Peace Studies textbook I’m reading today, distributed by the lovely University of Sydney, clearly states that the world’s problems are the fault of the U.S. And the only way to make the world a better place is to boycott the U.S. Empire.

Johan Galtung a leading peace researcher says in my textbook, “Most of the sources of violence in the twenty-first century are globalized, privatized, monetized capitalism; the US empire expanding that system also by military means including the encircling of Russia-China-India (40 percent of humanity); the contradiction between 2,000 nations, 200 states and 20 nation-states basically with one nation Peaceful solutions include better distribution/alternative economic systems, boycott of the US empire…

Clever wording Johan. The 21st Century began only 8 years ago. But “century” makes it sound like the U.S. has been the problem for AGES. And did you forget about the RELIGIOUS war over Palestine? That’s been in the 21st Century too. And it’s not because of the U.S. or because of capitalism.

Oh and hey Johan – why didn’t you mention the 20th century? Oh that’s right … because WWI, WWII, the religious wars over Palestine, the Tutsi Genocide in Africa… etc. you can’t blame those on the U.S.

Did you know that NONE of the armaments for that horrendous Tutsi slaughter in Africa were supplied by the U.S. No … they were actually all supplied by the European States that criticize the U.S. for the amount of weapons the U.S. has. You see, it’s not ok for the U.S. to have weapons but it IS ok for THEM (the people who criticize) to make money selling weapons. I think if you’re so anti-weapons that you probably shouldn’t make them yourself.

But it’s all good. The world and the violence in the world can all be blamed on us. There would be no war – no conflict – no suffering – if everyone in the world could hate the U.S. together.

Forget about hating someone over a difference in religion. Forget about hating someone over the color of their skin. You only need to hate someone if they come from Anglo-America. It’s that simple.

And as far as the problems in America – let’s not hold any other nation accountable for similar problems. Americans – who are not humans and don’t deserve the basic Human Rights of respect and dignity – are the only ones who should be criticized for their mistakes. Because like Johan said – it’s the whole world against one and that’s the PEACEFUL solution.

Umm … you’re a hypocrite.

Sunday night I was advised that I better lose my American accent QUICK (I’m sure he meant to say quickLY) but I’ve learned to be fluent in Aussie bad grammar so that I may still communicate with those around me. I looked at him in what could not be mistaken for anything but incredulity and he continued on insulting me helping me like a kind friend should do.

“Oh no. You’ve gotta lose that quick.” He said again. “The American accent is the worst in the world. You definitely don’t want to have that. People don’t like Americans. You don’t want people to hear that you’re American straight away.”

I studied his face to see if he was completely insane and serious or if he was teasing. He was serious.

I’m living amongst hypocrites people who CLAIM to be so much better and tolerant and relaxed and chill etc. etc. etc. than Americans yet who feel COMPELLED to not only be prejudiced but to let every American they meet know how inferior THEY THINK Americans are to the rest of the world.

Huh. That’s ridiculous interesting.

Maybe they share these things with me because think I’m “savable.” Maybe I should be flattered that so many people are looking out for me.

I’ve heard people say that they only hate Americans because Americans think they’re better than Australians. Guess what? I hadn’t ever given Australia more thought than a geography book before I met Davide. AND I don’t know a single American who goes around thinking they are better than Australians. WHY? BECAUSE WE HAVE BETTER THINGS TO THINK ABOUT THAN WORRYING IF WE’RE BETTER THAN AUSTRALIANS!!!!

Hate us for being self-absorbed. Don’t hate us because we think we’re better because we don’t waste time worrying about if we’re better or not. We have 10 times the amount of people living in our country – and that means we are VASTLY different. You can’t compare apples to oranges. And though Australia does so many things BETTER than the US – the US does a few things better than Australia.

Australians (though thankfully not all of them) hate us because THEY THINK we think we’re better. But if they’d get their head out of their “arses” maybe they’d realize the only people worried about who is “better” is the Australians.