Let’s talk dating – We’re prolly not compatible if … part 1

Posted on October 22, 2009 by Daisy

In an attempt to make myself more socially networked (haha!) I decided to update my status on a link-up site – “link-up” is quasi-code for dating. HAHAHAHAHA! Can you imagine?? Laugh out loud if you must – I do!! I’m not in the market to date – I live in Australia and am quite content being single – but I thought it would be interesting to dabble a bit. Want to know the results so far??

Oh I bet you are just DYING to know. *wink* After one week of being “updated” I’ve discovered some VERY interesting things about myself. AAANNNDDD very interesting things about the way men try and pick-up chics online … I’ve learned which techniques are OVER USED, which seem fresh, which ones are SO DUMB and which ones make me smile. It’s quite fascinating really!!

At first I replied to EVERY message.
EVERY MESSAGE!!!
But after getting THIRTY – yes THIRTY messages over the duration of ONE CLASS – I realized I HAVE to filter or I’ll spend the rest of my life replying to emails!!! It’s the end of the semester – I honestly don’t have time to reply to a bajillion emails.

So how do I filter? Which guys make the cut? How can I possibly make that decision? It seems so … so … so… MEAN! And judgmental!!

I mean seriously – what if this dude happens to be perfect but his game is just a little off at the moment? HAHA! No. At the moment, with my time schedule, in order for Mr. Right to actually BE Mr. Right – he’s going to have to be playing up to par. OR if he’s playing to be a bestie and isn’t interested in anything more – he’s going to have to be funny. :) I could use the laughs right now!! *cheesy smile*

Anyway – please don’t take this blog the wrong way. Part of my therapy/learning is that I am supposed to try and be more discriminating with my time because I so often feel overwhelmed with social engagements or guilty for wanting to be the introvert that I am. My therapist says it’s OK for me to prefer not to hang out with some people. And it’s OK if I would prefer to spend more time with A than B.

And so in the world of online dating – this is a GREAT opportunity for me to practice my filtering skills. For example – today I read an email from a dude whose profile says that he can’t stand femi-nazis or those who are pro-choice. Ok – I respect he has opinions on the matter. But “femi-nazis?” OMGOSH – I’m against Nazis but femi-nazi?? What does that even mean?? Oh so he’s against women who are feminist? Maybe he’s not secure with his manhood? I don’t know – I just know that he and I are NOT compatible.

#1 – we’re prolly not compatible if you use inflammatory speech and state that you hate or can’t stand a specific group of people on your profile page. Unless of course you just can’t stand people who can’t stand other people – cuz I’m with you there!! I have no tolerance for prejudice. But if you are intolerant of others’views – not cool. The world is all shades of grey – if you only see two colors – we’re PROLLY not compatible.

Anyway … funny funny … I wrote back to this guy and flat out told him that I probably hit MOST of his red-flags being that I’m not super conservative, I DO believe in women’s rights and I DON’T have a fascination with guns. I didn’t NEED to write back – but seriously – I thought it would be better to be blunt that I’m NOT his girl.

Oh heavens. Heavens heavens heavens. He wrote back and asked me how I could call myself a Christian. Hmm … \

Maybe he forgot about the story where Jesus didn’t shun or hate the prostitute??

Right – and HE’S the one who is Christian …

Ok – enough out of me. :) I’ll keep you updated on the sweet world of online match-making as time goes on. HAHAHAHAHA!

Slippery as ice!! Sydney’s dangerous sidewalks!!!

Posted on September 8, 2009 by Daisy

What’s more dangerous than walking on icy snow in wicked tall high heels?

photo by John Fraissinet’s under a CC license

Walking on SYDNEY SIDEWALKS in FLIP FLOPS!!!!

photo by Joseph Robertson under a CC license

No joke. I’m not kidding you. AT ALL. Walking down a sidewalk in Sydney’s CBD when it’s raining and you’re wearing normal flippy floppies (or thongs for all you Aussies) is MORE SLIPPERY than walking along an icy sidewalk in heels. And believe me – I have experience with both.

Normal sidewalks? No problem. The rain can’t get ME down. But a sidewalk in the city? or in the central business district? or just anywhere non-residential? WATCH OUT FOR YOUR LIFE!!! If you don’t have kick-A traction on the soles of your shoes – you are going DOWN – flat on your rear. Or if you have the powers of grace (like me hee hee) you’ll just slide around and look like you’re ice-skating for the first time.

photo by ??Tex Texin?? under a CC license.

I guess the good news is I get to feel like I’m dancing in the rain – a nice slippery smooth dance. and really … if it weren’t for my flailing arms trying to keep balance – I’d probably be mistaken for a fairytale ballerina.

photo by ME :)

Song by Tegan and Sara “Back in your head” (Tiesto remix)

Heart Skipped a Beat

Posted on September 7, 2009 by Daisy

The xx – “Heart Skipped a Beat.” (at the bottom of post)

I turned in my essay finally – 2.5 weeks late. That’s a whole heck of a lot. But it’s done. And it was done fairly well. It feels good.

This week I have two short animations to turn in as well as the launch and design of a new website. It’s exciting to have classes that produce more than just theoretical considerations. :) And I’m really excited about the new site!!!

FUNNY STORY OF THE DAY

North Sydney called me tonight. I haven’t spoken with him for a week. He started to tell me something and I interrupted and said, “I think I’m going to go to bed.” He was like, “What?” And then I was like, “Yeah – what time is it?” He answered, “7:00″ and I was like – “Oh nice – yeah I’m going to bed.” And then I did. 2 hours later when I woke up I realized what happened and sent an apology text – but seriously – LOL!!! I must have been SOOOOOoooooooo out of it. He replied to my text, “It’s ok hun, you sounded pretty sleepy.” LOL!

Aaaannnnnddddd now I’m going to go to bed again. Obviously I need it!!!

It’s just one of those days

Posted on September 4, 2009 by Daisy

“It’s just one of those days when you don’t want to wake up. life sucks. you want to justify ripping someone’s head off.” ~Limp Bizkit

Noise cancellation headphones. Lots of bass. Volume – a lot of volume – the kind that almost makes your ears ring – not the kind girls try to get in their hair. It’s quiet time. Quiet time with deafening emotional noise.

Admittedly I am going to sleep on the wrong side of the bed tonight. It’s just one of those days.

rain-tiltshift

“In the brightest hour of my darkest day I realized what is wrong with me … days come and go but my feelings last forever” ~papa roach

Hmm – I should probably put a little sugar in this post. Let’s see … my brother taught me how to do tilt-shift effects on photography – I’ll come up with better examples when I’m not crabby/grumpy/tired/ornery (you get the picture) – but this will do for now.

11-tiltshift

Oh and while I’m throwing stuff out there – North Sydney is NOW on a space freak kick (so much for things staying the same – oh wait – that’s right – they DID stay the same – he ALWAYS freaks out)…

AAANNNDDD I believe I completely alienated CC+4 – which is actually kind of a funny story about the reality of mis-communication in emails but – not a story for today … and anyway – I feel kind of guilty – because I could PROBABLY correct the situation (and by probably I mean I totally could) but I don’t want to – and then I feel guilty because I don’t want to – like I’m a bad person for not wanting to repair things – but then my adviser says I need to learn to stop being so hard on myself and I think – WHY DO I HAVE TO HAVE REASONS FOR EVERYTHING I DO AND FEEL?? Can’t I just FEEL a certain way?? Maybe I don’t FEEL like repairing things.

Matty Matt would say that’s perfectly fine – but my stupid conscience!!!!! It nags and nags and nags – the thing is – I DIDN’T DO ANYTHING WRONG!!!

But I FEEL like I could have handled the situation better because I recognize there has been a misunderstanding and I FEEL like it’s my responsibility to fix things – but then I think …

WHY IS IT ALWAYS MY RESPONSIBILITY TO FIX EVERYTHING?

And then I think “Because I’m the bigger person – or because I’m strong – or because I CAN and if I CAN then I SHOULD…” but then that OTHER side of my conscience kicks in and says – DAISY!!!!!!! STOP!!!!!! Stop trying to be perfect, stop trying to be perfectly unselfish and perfectly devoted to always putting yourself LAST.

WHY?? Because in some twisted form of rational logic putting myself last actually does more harm than good – and in that sense I should feel guilty for doing HARM – so it’s A NO WIN SITUATION. When I put myself and my feelings first – I feel guilty for being “selfish” and when I put myself last I feel guilty and resentful. Guilty because I know that ultimately putting myself last means I’m lowering my worth and making myself less worthwhile to society as a whole – and resentful because for 27 years I’ve tried to be everything that I SHOULD be – and being everything one SHOULD be is quite impossible. And I’m tired.

That’s right. I’m tired. Very very tired of it all.

Daisy says the Darndest Things days 20-31

Posted on August 31, 2009 by Daisy

It’s been awhile. Like over-a-week-awhile. Like the longest-I’ve-ever-gone-without-blogging-while. Not a good thing. What’s happened in the last 11 days?? A whole lot of not a whole lot. Yeah – that’s right.

First I had an assignment due – a big one. That was due 2 weeks ago. I still haven’t handed it in. Things haven’t been going as smoothly as hoped.

Day 20, 21 & 22- when I was still optimistic about my essay

Day 23 and 24 – Remember how I decided no more kissing North Sydney because HE IS A COMMITMENTPHOBE who FREAKS OUT every time HE kisses me!?!? Yeah – that didn’t last long. And then I went to my international adviser and she told me that she struggling to try and work with me because I’m smarter than her and my life is very complicated. Gee – that’s encouraging. (insert glare.)

Day 25 and 26 - I think it was about THIS point in my life when I discovered North Sydney didn’t remember ANYTHING about our meeting, his “stalk you later” phone calls and our very brief romance a year ago. I very bluntly called this to his attention. :) He tried to kiss and make up – I rolled my eyes and laughed. Then I tried to do my essay and fell asleep over and over again. Oh and I discovered I can tell the difference between fresh and not-as-fresh M&Ms. oh yes.

Day 27 – I went and met with the adviser again and this time she was more encouraging. We determined that I’m having issues with essay writing because of my first semester as a graduate student when I had a super nasty teacher who used her dislike of my nationality to influence the marks she gave me. As a straight 95% and above student my whole life – I lost all confidence in my ability to be a student after I received her grades and this lack of confidence is a detriment to my current studies. :( We agreed that discrimination and racism are out of my control and I need to try and move forward. I decided to study in the park under the bright and beautiful sun.

Day 28 - I actually went to class – instead of staying home sick like I did the rest of the week. Class was REALLY good – I’m in the process of animating a girl on a swing set. It’s a lot of fun and I can do it for hours and hours without getting bored. A BIG relief from essay writing.

Day 29 and 30 – I’ve had insomnia like no other the past couple of weeks. “Bones” the television series has become my nightly insomnia treatment. It also makes for great dreams. I’ve never been a better crime fighter/super hero/pretend anthropologist in my life. :) lol.

Day 31 – One month down – 12 more to go.

It means “I love you” in sign language. I might have accidentally kind of said something that would indicate the possibility that I COULD be in love with North Sydney. I didn’t mean to!! It slipped out!!!

He said- “You need to have kids. You will be a great mom.” (a nice compliment bcuz he has a child.)

I said – “Yeah but finding the right guy is going to be next to impossible. I think I’ll just settle with my dogs – they’re like my kids.”

He laughed and said, “You’re getting close. If you mix CC+4 with -3 you’d almost get the perfect man for you.”

I said, “Yeah but I’m never going to meet someone who is perfect and there isn’t going to be a guy out there who is a cross between all the good of CC+4 and all the good of -3.”

He said, “You never know…”

I said, “What I really need is just to find the American version of you – then I’d be set.”

I CAN’T BELIEVE I SAID THAT!!!

I told my flatmate that I couldn’t believe I let that one slip out!!! North Sydney gets scared off every time he kisses me – and then I tell him he’s like the perfect guy for me?? My flatmate said, “Yeah but do you feel that way?” I said – “Yes.” And my flatmate said, “Well then you told the truth. You shouldn’t be worried about it.”

He’s right. I told the truth. And fortunately for me – North Sydney DIDN’T freak out – he just took it as a compliment – and things are the same as always. :)

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