Goals vs. Direction & SYTYCD Slideshow – YAY!!!

Having goals and having direction in life are not one-in-the-same.  I am GREAT at making, working toward, and achieving goals.  But direction?  Well THAT my friends is an entirely different matter.  In THAT particular realm of existence, I have none.

I could recite some scholarly psychological reasons for my lack of direction, I could offer some heart-wrenching excuses – but the fact of the matter is – doing such will not get me any closer to finding my life’s compass than I was before.  And this is a very big problem.

I began my Australian journey long before I had ever considered Sydney as a place to live.  It began with a sense of unrest.  An unspoken yet annoyingly nagging feeling that I needed to be somewhere else, doing something else.  I didn’t know where, I didn’t know what, I didn’t know why or how.  I only knew that 1. change was necessary, 2. it needed to be big, and 3. it needed to be international.

Other than this my only main life goals were a post-graduate education and hopefully a job doing something I enjoy.  So that was it.  I tried to envision a more concrete “5 year plan” like WHAT I should major in or WHAT I would like to do as a career but I didn’t even know if I liked sushi, or what was my favorite flavor of gelato!  Not that this mattered – the point was I had no idea what I wanted.  It seems a funny thing happens when the unexpected becomes the goal – suddenly it becomes very difficult to want or plan anything – those wants or plans can’t be “unexpected” if they’re planned can they?

So I strolled along the avenues of my life, searching for open doors to take me from my street into a world unknown.  I figured eventually I’d discover a path and it would just “work out.”  When I found the door to Australia open, I ran inside and locked the door behind me.  No turning back.

INTERMISSION:  I’ve decided to fulfill my promise and post pics from SYTYCD!!!  Be warned – they’re pretty flippin amazing ;) – though the end of the slideshow got a little messed up – but hey – c’est la vie.

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Ok – back to it.  There was just one little problem – I still had no idea what I was going to do.  I only knew WHERE I was going to do “it.”  I had reached my “goal” – big, international change with a bonus helping of post-graduate education – but I had no direction.  Peace and Conflict seemed a noble and worthwhile goal – until I discovered that the walls of that hallway were painted with hypocrisy, agendas, and lack of structure.

I backed out of that one and thought “Hmm – Digital Communication sounds nice.  Digital IS the way of the future and communication is my thing.”  But today as I was doing my research I was told DO NOT MAJOR IN ANYTHING COMMUNICATION- or at least not if you have to pay for it.  My source was quite reputable, he recently retired from being the President of a broadcasting company.  His opinion is that my degree would be the worst investment and biggest waste of money ever.  How’s that for reassuring?

MINI BREAK :) Here is a clip from the show … watch for us on the lefthand balcony of the stage.  :) This was my fave performance and you can totally see us!!!  Here is Gianne and BJ.  (skip to like 1 minute in to avoid the boring talking part.)

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And now I’m left wondering what the use of goals are if you have no direction.  And though of course, indirectly, the whole purpose of this “unexpected” thing was to discover my unexpected but entirely desirabledirection in life” – but I fear I’m as far away from that goal as I ever have been.

I guess the good news is that along the way I’ve learned some pretty amazing things and revived a few old goals – like the whole R word which leads to the L word which leads to the M word (shudder) I didn’t have that in the 5, 10 OR 20 year plan – NOW – well … I am still not planning on it – but I definitely wouldn’t mind considering it.

WHICH BTW – The FM gave me a spreadsheet-ish breakdown of the differences between a DB (like Captain Charisma or U.D.B.) and a nice guy (like the dude from the party on Sunday or potentially CC+4 or Ben but since FM hasn’t met those boys he isn’t willing to call them nice yet.)  SO I will post the differences tomorrow.  :)

As well as my view of boys who use emoticons.

AND TO MAKE THIS THE LONGEST POST IN THE WORLD (not so large exaggeration) here’s a sucky one in which we are in MOST of …  Talia and Emmanuel (skip like before …)

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Worms and Dirt are soooo gross

a-goof-4Oh my, my, my.  What a week this has been!!  My last day of class was today (hip hip hooray!) and as I’m sure you know – studying for finals is HECTIC!!

I ended up enjoying the class – who knew Counter-terrorism and Human Rights would prove to be fascinating? There is so much to consider with regard to the delicate balance between security and liberty.  A nation must be secure in order to provide liberty but protecting certain liberties can endanger security! A bit of a catch-22.

a-goof-2We fared ok on our sucky group presentation but we didn’t get an A.  :( 5 years ago I would have cried because I didn’t get an A – but I’ve decided that because this was out of my control (stupid group work!) I don’t need to fuss myself about it.  We got a B.

After class I headed out with the FM’s GF and I’ll tell you what – I love that girl!  She’s CRAZY!  lol.  She calls me a “shocka” all of the time – but I think maybe she’s projecting.  ;) HAHA!  Ok – maybe we’re BOTH “shocka”s.  She’s on the far left in the pic below.  Her hottie sis is in the background and the cutie next to me?  That’s Ben.  He reckons I should go camping while I’m in  Australia.

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I think camping is a great idea and all but I have this phobia of worms.  Oh yes.  Worms.  I’m terrified of them.  I can’t look at them, the thought of touching them makes my skin absolutely crawl and they live in dirt.  And I don’t like dirt.  But there is a lot of dirt when you camp. Or at least I think there is a lot of dirt when you camp.  There is in Utah!  a-goof-9

Wait a minute – Daisy – you’re afraid of worms? but you have an eyeball in your mocktail? Yep.  That’s right.

Haha!  doesn’t that drink look absolutely foul?  The nasty egg looking thing is a lychee and the black floaty things are passionfruit seeds.  SOOOO delicious.  It just looks like eyeballs and guts.  :) I think it’s my new favorite non-alcoholic beverage.  Tart, yummy, fruity and the carbonation in the Sprite makes your tongue tingle.

a-goof-6Ok back to like one of the worst subjects on the planet – dirt  and worms.  One time I ate a Harry Potter Jelly Belly that was flavored ‘earthworm.’  Disgusting.  I about gagged and then even after I spit it out I STILL almost threw up.  So gross.  And traumatic.

Why did I do it?  Because the guy I was sharing the Bertie Botts with said he’d eat the vomit one if I ate the earthworm one.  Yeah – he got the better end of the deal.  I’ll be haunted by that flavor FOREVER!

Anyway – I think I’ll try to go camping.  I mean – sure – Australia grows deadly gross stuff (ex: snakes or spiders) and that means they probably most likely have killer worms…   But Ben goes camping all of the time and I don’t think he’d tell me to go if he thought I’d be attacked by killer worms.  But you never know – I could be wrong.  I hear killer worms like to eat redheads in particular – and Ben did offer to accompany me … maybe he wants to FEED me to them.  ;)

Another busy day

My day has been a shocka.  BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY.  Up at 6:30 after 3.5 hours of sleep.  Our group presentation sucked (though not as much as I feared.)  Our written report sucked (though not as much as I feared.)  And yeah – Uni stuff took 9 hours today.

I went straight to SYTYCD from Uni and it was CRAZY FUN!!!  It’s amazing what a smile will do for you.  :) I  smiled, threw out a little charm and BAM we were asked to be in the “special section” up on the balcony -  sa-weet!  We didn’t even have to ask!  :) And now you will be able to see our lovely forms in the background of every dance this Sunday.  Oh yes.  That’s the spot to be!  My FM snuck in a camera (shh don’t tell) and I will be posting pics soon!  (as well as a video clip so you can see our sweet spot!)

And now I’m home – just looked up the full definition of “ellipsis” and have decided I ADORE this WOTD stuff!  Even made sure to include several examples of an ellipsis in this post.  :) These words are GREAT!!!   And now I’m going to try and stay awake to study for my final exam tomorrow – boring!

Oh and if I get deported and sent to an Australian detention “camp” for holding (still haven’t heard from uni about next semester and enrollment is Monday) I’m sooo turning in my life as a script for a lifetime movie.  ;)

Cheers! ~Daisy

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Roses are sometimes red

Want to know what I haven’t done for awhile?  Post my awesome emoticons!  But it’s Valentine’s Day tomorrow and I think that warrants some major emoticon love!  And yes – it DOES kinda look like cupid threw up all over my blog.  But too bad so sad!  It’s Valentine’s Day – deal with it.  )

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Ah but my favorite one…  it’s called “go get a room.”

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Just teasing!!!  My favorite one is this:

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HAHA!  lol.  No for REAL my fave is simply:

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Oh and THANK YOU to Dave from CafeDave because he sent me a link to find popcorn in Sydney.  YAY!!!  I’m sooooo excited!!

Ooh – it’s late.  I totally should be asleep right now – I have school tomorrow.  On Saturday.  I have school on Saturday – LAME!  And double lame because it’s Valentine’s Day!  Ah well – it’ll keep me distracted from the fact that MY sweethearts (which are none other than my adorable dogs Duchess and Chloe – aw – they’re so cute!!!!) AND any potential Valentine (like CC+4, Adorable Boy or Glitter Boy) are all 8,000+ miles away.

So I’m going to sign off for the night – tomorrow I’ll have to tell you about the crazy movie I saw, the yummy popcorn I ate ;) and maybe I’ll even tell you about the new kindred spirit I’ve discovered (would you ever have guessed it’s one of guys who used to be one of the slackers in my group at school?)  lol.

Good night!  Or maybe I should say, “Good morning!!”  xoxo ~Daisy