I miss home.  And I’m sick of people telling me they know EXACTLY how I feel and because they understand EXACTLY how I feel they know that I have no reason to be frustrated with my new living conditions.

Ok so seriously – If you understood EXACTLY HOW I FEEL you would understand WHY I am FRUSTRATED!!! Not why I shouldn’t be.

Did YOU leave behind a family and BFFs that you absolutely adore and were very close to?  Did YOU leave behind a good job, a full kitchen, a busy life, a full social calendar, a car, a piano, all of your hobbies, a great wardrobe, two nieces, a nephew and two puppies who you love more than you ever thought it was possible to love?  Did YOU move to a foreign country with spiders and cockroaches the size of hamsters and get stuck in an educational program that is GARBAGE, taught be teachers who aren’t super qualified, and you are going in debt to do it?

I know it was my choice to come.  It’s my choice to be here. BUT I HAD NO IDEA WHAT I WAS GETTING MYSELF INTO!!! And it doesn’t and shouldn’t discredit what I left behind or my feelings of loss. AND right now it doesn’t really make me feel better about the spiders, snakes, cockroaches, flying things, bats, weather, Aussie sunblock (which doesn’t really work and only goes up to spf 30) or living in a house whose kitchen doesn’t have the basic amenities and conveniences to which I’ve grown accustomed.  It also doesn’t make me feel better about taking public transportation or living in a shoebox.  And it definitely doesn’t make me feel better about the grocery stores, meat, food, vegetables, fruits, clothes etc. that are sub-par compared to America.

I’ll get over it.  I’ll adjust and be fine  – but sometimes it’s hard to keep a positive attitude.