Category Archives: Fate – Destiny – whatever – Some things happen for a reason

In the air …

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Right about now I’m flying over the pacific ocean (and last week I was cruising over it – crazy!!)

I don’t talk about my past a lot. In fact, I don’t really talk about it at all. But the cruise last week – the cruise I knew I needed to be on – it helped me open up a bit. I talked to CC+4 and my new friend Bobcat about my past. It was good for me to remember the things I try and forget. I’ve distanced myself enough from my past that now I can look back and say “Wow. Look what I overcame. Wow. Look what I’ve created for myself against all odds.” And you know what? I’m proud of myself. I’m a far cry from where I wish I were. There are many choices I would go back and make differently if I could – but where I’m at – despite the arduous, traumatic and extremely painful journey to get here – feels good.

I have a great life. I live in Sydney, Australia of all places and I meet amazing and cool people on a continual basis. And I am happy. I’m happy despite it all. And that is what I’m most proud of – the fact that I took control of my life and attitude and despite every negative – every trial – every pain – I chose happiness. And you know what? Happiness is NOT the easiest choice. Believe me – it’s much easier to allow your trials to consume you. I have lived nightmares and at times I didn’t think I’d live through them – times I prayed I wouldn’t live through them. But I did. And now I’m stronger. I overcame them – and now I’m here creating my destiny, trying to find the path fate has in store for me.

My most recent chapter? 2009. Already an unexpected cruise and a whole lot of “I don’t know” up in the air.

My unexpected cruise crush CC+4 dropped me off at the airport. I’m soooo glad he did. He’s adorable and I am happy I got to spend every extra minute with him.

And now I’m off to the next great adventure and chapter in my life. One chapter at a time, I’m slowly creating a life which is absolutely unexpected yet completely desirable.   I have no idea what’s coming next – but I hope it includes him again – if at least only for a bit.

He talked about visiting me in Australia soon … I fully support that idea.

It was a crazy week

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Last week was a craaazzzyyy week.  I met a lot of new people, went on more dates than there were days in the week (yikes!) hit the 13 lb weight loss mark – am soooo happy about that!  And then booked myself on a last minute Mexican Riviera Cruise.  YAY!!!

I don’t have time to write more of my Australian Story before I leave (sorry!) but I thought I’d do a quick future post so you all have something to read in case I can’t find an internet connection.  ) )

Right now I’m somewhere on the pacific ocean wearing a lot of sunblock and trying to attend as many cruise activites as I can.  My friends are all planning to spend all day, every day, at the pool or on the beach.  That’s fun for sure!  But I live 60 seconds walking distance from one of the best beaches in EVER so I’m going to take this opportunity for some fun diverse experience.  What?  There’s an ice sculpture show?  Sign me up!  And a flower demonstration?  Oh my gosh!  I’ll be there!  Hee hee.  This is going to be a riot.

I’m completely serious about trying to squeeze in as many cruise activities as possible.  It’s going to ROCK!  Most of it will be … umm … interesting?? well at least entertaining!!! (because I’ll be making fun of it in my head – wait – I mean I’ll be enjoying it.  ;))

I’m going to attempt to take as many pics as possible and do a bit of video so you can all enjoy the craziness right along with me.  ) I’m afraid I will be going to most of these activities alone (my Utah friends could NEVER resist some time in the sun) but that is actually exciting too!  I can’t wait!!

So … Happy week!!!  And when I hit an internet cafe in Cabo I’ll give you a live update.  ) YAY!!!

A glimmer of hope becomes a reality – I’m off to Mexico for a week!! :)

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A glimmer of hope.  So small you’re afraid it may only be your wild imaginings.  You do a reality check.  You make sure you’re grounded and look again.  It’s there.  But very faint.

All measures to strengthen the possibility of success are undertaken.  It seems each step closer is accompanied with two that push you farther away because you’re working against the clock.  But you still hope.  And even as the glimmer begins to fade from sight you keep it alive in your heart.  Maybe – just maybe – the world will work its magic and fate will spin you in the direction you wish.

It’s silly really.  I didn’t even imagine it was a possibility until about 8:30 pm last night.  But even in that small window of time, from then until now, I hoped it would work.  I had hope I could make it happen.  I called every agency I could find.

No luck.

What a shame.  He was adorable.   I was positively taken in by his romantic charm when he chased me down and very publicly (in front of an entire party) got my number because though he hadn’t ever met me, he had seen me 6 months ago, remembered me, (I remembered him too!) and he wasn’t going to allow me to walk out of his life again without a proper introduction.

He took me to dinner last night. He was supposed to be in Long Beach but caught a later flight and worked it out so that he could still take me to dinner.  That’s right.  He made sure he could take me to dinner before I leave for Australia.  Can we say “charming?”  We only got 2.5 hours together but he was adorable the entire time (the cute flattery he was throwing down didn’t hurt either.) ) And since he’s a friend of a friend, and a very wanted bachelor, I know it was saying something for him to not only coordinate time to see me on the day of his flight but also to give up a FRIDAY night, and to be my date at MY friend’s surprise birthday dinner.

HOWEVER – completely aside from him – I wanted to go anyway!  Linds and I had talked about it before but I wasn’t going to be in town so we didn’t book it.  You see I SHOULD be in Australia right now – but a mess up at school kept me in Utah longer.

And then he happened to mention he would be going on the VERY cruise Linds and I had wanted to book.  He turned to me and with an adorable smile he said, “Please come!” and I thought – why not?  We know tons of people on the cruise and even if I spend no time with him at all – I’ll be having fun and spending time with other friends!!

And that’s when we saw a glimmer of hope – which was almost smashed after 12 hours of searching for an available room with no luck.  The ship was sold out and it leaves TOMORROW.

And now – RIGHT NOW – I’ve just sent in a confirmation of booking.  In an unexpected twist of fate, a travel agency in Canada called Carnival at the very moment someone cancelled and we were able to take the room.  ) The VERY LAST ROOM.  A room that no other agency had been able to procure.

So folks – I’m off to Mexico!!  I’ll take tons of pics and will undoubtedly have GREAT stories to tell soon.  )

My Australian Story – Part 2 – A Little Background

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How did I come to be in Australia?  This is my story.  If you missed Part 1 last week you can find it here:  My Australian Story – Part 1 – First Sight

Part 2 was supposed to be “We Meet” however the meeting becomes ordinary without the little details that make it extraordinary.  I should never have been there.  That club, that crowd, that city – it was never supposed to be that way – and it almost wasn’t.  It was a series of small, seemingly random and unconnected events which pushed me into his arms.

It began with a student film.  I didn’t even know her!  Our two or three interactions had been limited to the strict structure of acquaintances who have no real desire to know each other.  So when she asked me to be in her film – I was more than a little surprised.  But how could I resist ) ??

When the filming was finished I got ready to go.  Mindless chit-chat during clean-up revealed a Vegas trip planned for that very weekend.  It had been planned for weeks but her friend had just barely canceled.  She was going to go anyway.  Maybe I would like to come?  It was my 26th birthday that weekend.  Hmm … I had plans, a party and a date but in a very uncharacteristic whim I blew it all off to go to Vegas with a girl whose last name I didn’t even know.

Day and Night One – Our first day being – well – friends!   A little hot tub time and dinner out on the town!  Our first pictures together – EVER!  [March 2008]

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The next day we went to the mall (of course we did.)  We’d been shopping for HOURs – it was time to go back to the hotel for more hot tub time.  Sheryl asked, “Do you want to go down that way?  There’s nothing down there.”  It was true.  I looked at her and said, “No – there’s just a Gap.  I hate the Gap.”  We started to walk away.

“Well,” I stopped.  “Actually … I’ll be right back.”  She looked at me like I was crazy and I walked to the end of the level and stopped.  Maybe I was crazy.  There was nothing there except for a Gap – we already knew that.  I hate the Gap.  I wasn’t going to go inside of the Gap.  I hate the Gap.  So what the H.E. double was I doing?  Nothing I guess.  So I stood there looking very solitary for a moment wondering what my deal was and then I turned around and began walking back to Sheryl.

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“Miss!” someone yelled after me – he had just come out of the Gap.  I stopped and waited for him.  “I saw you from inside the store and had to come talk to you.  I’m the VIP Host at Body English.  I’d love to have you come out to our club tonight.  Here’s my card.”

“Oh.  Ok cool thanks.  I’m not sure what we’re doing tonight but …”

“We’re hosting an MTV special tonight. You should come.  Just come to the VIP line and I’ll take care of everything.”

Body English?  We’d never heard of it.  I put his card in my purse and we forgot about it.  Plus we had promised to meet one of my girlfriends from Vegas at Club Tryst – Body English just wasn’t in the cards.

That night as we were ghetto-ing it up for the club the GF called and canceled.  Hmm … now what?  We had VIP passes to a couple places… Maybe we SHOULD give Body English a go?  After all, we wouldn’t have even had the VIP card if I hadn’t been a freak and stood all alone doing nothing for no reason at the end of the mall where there was nothing but the Gap.  I hate the Gap.

We arrived just as the club was at maximum capacity.  But lucky for us – because the guy had scouted me we were put at the front of the line and they closed the line behind us.  2 minutes later and we would have been out of luck.  And it was there, crowded and enmeshed in a throng of people that I locked eyes with HIM for one quick moment – and then he was gone.

Next Week – My Australian Story – Part 3 – Our Dance

A night of Adventure

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NOTE TO SELF:  GM makes stupid keys that start the car but don’t unlock the doors.  If you go inside a club with one of these keys and leave the key-less entry part in the car you will not be able to unlock your car after the club.

Because of the weather I took my parent’s car out tonight – mine is a little on the slippery side.  (Note to self: don’t buy a sporty car if you live where it SNOWS! – my bad on that one.)  And LUCKY ME!!!  I learned that my parent’s car is one of those special cars – the ones with the keys that don’t work on the door – so I was locked outside of my car in 14F degree weather wearing a strapless sweater.  YAY for me!

BONUS!!!  – someone dinged the car!!!  And they were drunk.  And then the normally politically correct Daisy disappeared and frustrated Daisy took her place.   “Look Sweetie.  I’m not going to listen to you say you didn’t just hit my car.  I’m not drunk and I didn’t drink tonight – you ARE drunk and you DID drink tonight.  I know what happened and I’ve already called the police – so if you are going to continue yelling at me – you can just stop now because I won’t have it.”

The good news is that the boys with us were apparently street smart and before long had become “buddies” with the drunks and I got all of the information I needed from them.  ) Hooray for  – I don’t even know.  Should I be condoning street-smart-savvy-drunk-lingo?

But the good news is the night started out GREAT!   I went to dinner with my new Kindred Spirit. I was craving sushi like no other and MMMMM we went to the YUMMIEST place!  Then our waiter was pretty cute and he kept giving me these killer smiles!  He even threw in a surprise complimentary dessert at the end.  I left a note on the bill, “You are adorable and if I didn’t live in Australia I would have totally left my number. XO ~Daisy.”  I hope it made him smile.  )

Next on to dancing.  Also very fun – until the end when I locked myself out of the car in 14F – oh wait I already told you that story.

THANK YOU SCOTT PETE!!!  He was asleep but came and rescued me by bringing a second set of keys.  Whew – he saved the day!

And BONUS!!! I met this beautiful guy.  Mmm mmm.  And he’s already asked me to hang out!  Nice!  Btw – this post is one day behind – tomorrow I’ll tell you about how I finally met up with MIUB tonight.  Yes MIUB – the most self-absorbed man in my life.  Funny – I was worried I’d miss out on some great adventures if I stayed a few weeks longer in SLC – but it looks like these extra couple weeks are going to be craaaaaazzzzzyyyyy.