My Australian Story – Part 2 – A Little Background

How did I come to be in Australia?  This is my story.  If you missed Part 1 last week you can find it here:  My Australian Story – Part 1 – First Sight

Part 2 was supposed to be “We Meet” however the meeting becomes ordinary without the little details that make it extraordinary.  I should never have been there.  That club, that crowd, that city – it was never supposed to be that way – and it almost wasn’t.  It was a series of small, seemingly random and unconnected events which pushed me into his arms.

It began with a student film.  I didn’t even know her!  Our two or three interactions had been limited to the strict structure of acquaintances who have no real desire to know each other.  So when she asked me to be in her film – I was more than a little surprised.  But how could I resist ) ??

When the filming was finished I got ready to go.  Mindless chit-chat during clean-up revealed a Vegas trip planned for that very weekend.  It had been planned for weeks but her friend had just barely canceled.  She was going to go anyway.  Maybe I would like to come?  It was my 26th birthday that weekend.  Hmm … I had plans, a party and a date but in a very uncharacteristic whim I blew it all off to go to Vegas with a girl whose last name I didn’t even know.

Day and Night One – Our first day being – well – friends!   A little hot tub time and dinner out on the town!  Our first pictures together – EVER!  [March 2008]

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The next day we went to the mall (of course we did.)  We’d been shopping for HOURs – it was time to go back to the hotel for more hot tub time.  Sheryl asked, “Do you want to go down that way?  There’s nothing down there.”  It was true.  I looked at her and said, “No – there’s just a Gap.  I hate the Gap.”  We started to walk away.

“Well,” I stopped.  “Actually … I’ll be right back.”  She looked at me like I was crazy and I walked to the end of the level and stopped.  Maybe I was crazy.  There was nothing there except for a Gap – we already knew that.  I hate the Gap.  I wasn’t going to go inside of the Gap.  I hate the Gap.  So what the H.E. double was I doing?  Nothing I guess.  So I stood there looking very solitary for a moment wondering what my deal was and then I turned around and began walking back to Sheryl.

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“Miss!” someone yelled after me – he had just come out of the Gap.  I stopped and waited for him.  “I saw you from inside the store and had to come talk to you.  I’m the VIP Host at Body English.  I’d love to have you come out to our club tonight.  Here’s my card.”

“Oh.  Ok cool thanks.  I’m not sure what we’re doing tonight but …”

“We’re hosting an MTV special tonight. You should come.  Just come to the VIP line and I’ll take care of everything.”

Body English?  We’d never heard of it.  I put his card in my purse and we forgot about it.  Plus we had promised to meet one of my girlfriends from Vegas at Club Tryst – Body English just wasn’t in the cards.

That night as we were ghetto-ing it up for the club the GF called and canceled.  Hmm … now what?  We had VIP passes to a couple places… Maybe we SHOULD give Body English a go?  After all, we wouldn’t have even had the VIP card if I hadn’t been a freak and stood all alone doing nothing for no reason at the end of the mall where there was nothing but the Gap.  I hate the Gap.

We arrived just as the club was at maximum capacity.  But lucky for us – because the guy had scouted me we were put at the front of the line and they closed the line behind us.  2 minutes later and we would have been out of luck.  And it was there, crowded and enmeshed in a throng of people that I locked eyes with HIM for one quick moment – and then he was gone.

Next Week – My Australian Story – Part 3 – Our Dance

My Australian Story – Part 1 – First Sight

HAPPY NEW YEAR (again) – I’ve decided it’s time to tell the story of how I came to be in Australia.  It’s not quite as simple as my deciding I should up and move across the world.  I mean – well – it IS kind of that simple because I did kind of wake up one day and decide I should up and move across the world, HOWEVER, why did I happen to choose Australia?

Would it surprise you very much if I told you it had to do with a student film, a roadtrip to Vegas, and a boy?  It shouldn’t if you’ve been reading this blog.  lol.

I was walking through a crowd – he was walking the other direction.  I looked up to check my surroundings and our eyes met briefly – not more than a second – but it took my breath away.

And then he was gone.

Sheryl was there.  She watched it happen. She puts it better than I ever could have, “Something in you – something in your soul – recognized something in him – and in his.“   Her words burned with truth.  But my logical side kicked in – no, no, that’s silly.  I mean – what happened couldn’t have happened.  How can it be possible to look in someone’s eyes and suddenly see, with perfect clarity, the hidden web which fate has been spinning for you?

Suddenly you see bits of your life flash before your eyes and all of the unexplained puzzles, all of the out of character decisions, the bits of good and bad fortune in your recent life – they all make sense. There was a reason behind it all.  It all had a purpose.  And the purpose was that moment, those eyes…

No – no – that’s being sentimental/romantic/silly.  Things like that don’t happen in REAL life.

Except it DID happen in real life - in my life – 9 months ago.

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Coming soon …

My Australian Story – Part 2 – We Meet

He was asking about you

I think the decision was made in my heart long before I was willing to consciously accept it.  Everything else had to be put on hold while I sorted this through.

I sent MIUB a text today.  My late night whereabouts happened to be near his house.  The memories flooded back.  Why did Sheryl have to mention him tonight?  Why does everyone have to mention him?  “Oh Daisy I saw MIUB this weekend at a party.  He asked about you.“  “Oh guess who I ran into this weekend?  I saw MIUB.  He asked about you.”  “Hey so I saw MIUB this weekend.  He was asking about you.

ENOUGH!  Seriously – enough.  It bugs.

The other day I was so lost and confused.  An opportunity to stay in UT for a few more weeks presented itself.  I was distraught.  How could I make that decision?  I couldn’t think.  I couldn’t do anything.  I had to escape from my mind.  I started cleaning out boxes (my life is in storage right now) but before I knew it I had assembled a neat pile of things to take back to Sydney with me.

I am taking a huge chance on myself and my feelings by doing this.  I’m leaving behind more than words can articulate.  What if this is the wrong choice?  What if my staying in Utah is really for the best?

And then I remember that night – those eyes.  Brown eyes that pierced my soul.  Those eyes changed the course of my life.  I have to trust there was a reason my eyes locked with his.  I’m not saying the owner of those eyes and I are meant to be – but we were meant to meet.  I have to trust the path he opened for me.  I have to be in Sydney.

And now I hope.  Hope.  Now I hope that I am on the right track and not merely running away.

YES Man (the movie) and my life

Tonight I went and saw an advanced screening of Yes Man.  Jim Carrey is not my favorite but I really enjoyed the movie and everyone in the audience was laughing.

About a year ago I did something similar.  I decided I was going to start taking the opportunities that life handed me.  I ended up with a random girl (who became a friend) in Vegas for my birthday.  We went to the mall where a VIP Host for Body English invited me to be his guest that night at the club.  That night at the club I met a couple Australians (one of them being Davide and the other being BFA) and now I LIVE in their neighborhood in Australia.

It’s amazing what happens when you decide to say yes.  I’ve never had a problem saying yes to favors, requests, boundary violations ( and I’m learning to say “no” to those now.  But while I’m learning to say “no” I think it’s important that I still keep the “yes” alive.  I’ve kind of gotten off track with that too.

So here’s to more of the good No!s and the great Yes!es.  )

The YES Man Movie trailer if you’re interested:

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Insomnia – the joy of my nights

I used to get insomnia ALL of the time.  And I mean ALL of the time.   Sure it sucked but I dealt with it.  It was my life – what else could I do?

It kind of went away when I moved to the land down under (which coincidentally was the same time I gave up gluten) and I announced myself as cured!  YAY!  I was officially free from my sleeping disorder (diagnosis made by the magic powers of Daisy’s mind.)

Then about 6 weeks ago the insomnia started again.  I wonder if it could have anything to do with the bajillion things going on in my mind.

And then of course there’s this problem of HIM.  Yes – HIM.  My mind always drifts to HIM during the long hours at night when I want to sleep but can’t shut my mind down.  OF COURSE I think about HIM when I have insomnia – he has it too.  AND he’s never far from my mind. WHY??!!!???

Somewhere along the line he became an unconscious habit – one that I’m just barely recognizing.  I had it under control when I was in Sydney.  I very decidedly told myself that I was not allowed to think about him AT ALL and I was at least 80% successful.  You see, he kind of almost broke my heart. And he WOULD have broken it but I kept that pretty under control too.  I’d say I was at least 80% successful.  ;)

Ok so about 3 weeks before I came home though, I FINALLY admitted to my BFF to the extreme, Crysta, and my mom that I still had feelings for him.  AGH!!!  I’m so dumb!!!   And then of course now I’ve come back to memory lane.  And everyone asks about him because of course they ALL knew about him before I left. I was completely at least 80%  infatuated with him and at one point he was at least 80% infatuated with me in return.  Oh and did I mention he just happened to live in Australia?  WOW!  Imagine that!  (Full story coming soon.)

So everyone asks and that pushes him to the forefront of my mind – and ERR!!!

I guess today was just a little bit extra sucky because I went and saw all of my old coworkers who were there with me from the beginning of the infatuation.  And of course they asked – they ALL asked about him – and even though I told them I was moving to Australia for SCHOOL and not a boy they all secretly hoped it would work out and conveniently forgot that he lost interest BEFORE I EVEN ARRIVED!!!!  I reminded them of this tiny detail and they were like, “Oh yeah that’s right.  So he didn’t regain interest when he saw you again?”

NOPE!  AND THANK YOU FOR RUBBING IT IN!!!

Oh I can do nothing but laugh.  My silly heart.  It’s all good though, my thoughts of him now are nothing but wishes that he’s doing well and is happy.  Ok that’s a lie – sometimes they’re a bit more complicated than that – sometimes they’re memories – or silly wishes.  But for the most part, I don’t ever dwell.  I just wonder what he’s up to and hope he has a smile on his face)