My stupid horoscope day 8 – guess JUST FRIENDS is best

Posted on August 8, 2009 by Daisy

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Now playing: Akon – Beautiful
via FoxyTunes

Want to know what I like to call a BIG SUCKS?? When I decide I’m into a dude only to decide I’m going to follow my horoscope for a month only to find out that my horoscope says we should JUST BE FRIENDS!!! Say WHHHAAAATTT???

Yeah – that’s what it said. The EXACT words?? Beautiful Venus is quite active today in your 5th House of Love and Romance, possibly increasing your desire to spend quality time with someone you love. But there’s no need to add complex layers of attachment to a new or existing relationship, for the real gift of this transit is to bless you with the ability to live joyfully in the here and now.

Lame. But at the same time?? True. DANG IT!!!!

I DID spend quality time with North Sydney today. Want to know what we talked about?? My feelings for CC+4. Yes – go ahead and shake your fists at me – roll your eyes – whatever you must – but North Sydney kissed me the last time we hung out AND YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS?? He had another mini freak out and had to distance himself again in order to prevent himself from getting TOO close to me. Whatever. So since he was in super FRIEND zone he asked me to tell him the story about the cruise. So I did.

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Now playing: Kid Cudi – Day ‘N’ Nite (Crookers Remix)
via FoxyTunes

And THEN when I was FINALLY BRAVE ENOUGH

I told him that I can’t kiss him anymore if it’s going to make him withdraw from me. The fact is that I adore him – I care about our friendship and I LOVE spending time with him. And if he can’t do a relationship right now – ok. I’d rather be his friend with no kissing than have him be so scared of getting close.

AND THEN I ASKED HIM WHY HE’S SCARED OF GETTING CLOSE TO ME

And he couldn’t answer that one. So what did I do?? I kissed him goodbye – a good kiss. ;) And now he can think about it. But the fact of it is – my horoscope is true – I should enjoy the time I spend with him and not worry about anything more.

at least for now …

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Now playing: Hilary Duff – Reach Out (Bonus Track)
via FoxyTunes

Day 7/365 Reflections in the glass – a girl should always own a pearl necklace

AAANNNDDD Reflections in my eyes … click HERE for the original size – you can see the green grass and the blue sky in my eyes

Day 6 – Dreams for the day

Posted on August 7, 2009 by Daisy

Today my horoscope told me to dream. Apparently TODAY I am the leading lady in my own movie (roll my eyes – I’m the leading lady EVERY DAY ;) ) and I’m supposed to imagine my life TODAY without any restrictions or bars holding me back. And as much fun as it would be to completely dream my life away – the truth is there are only a few things I’d love right now.

My family, dogs and Matty Matt all living in Australia with me.
My painting supplies, a nice oven, my piano, and that really warm blanket my mom made for me.
To get into the Arts classes I REALLY REALLY want to take (fingers crossed – I find out tomorrow)
My car to be in Australia
AAANNNDDD maybe a new digital slr
oh and to have the men in my life stop being wishy washy :)
oopsie! also I’d like my space heater to stop blowing cold air

Oh my – that’s a very simple list isn’t it? I suppose that means I should be VERY grateful. :) I think tomorrow I’ll be much more movie-star-ish. I’m either going out with North Sydney or I was invited by one of #3′s friends on a kinda “date.” HAHA! I guess what they say about boys is true. Sharing is caring. (roll my eyes.)

6/365

Letter from my Conscience – Horoscope Day #I can’t believe I’ve done it for this long #1

Posted on August 5, 2009 by Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Hello! It’s your conscience here – but you PROLLY already knew that. It’s just … well … I hate to interrupt your normal bloginess but … well … we need to talk. You know your little horoscope project? The one that you were like, “OMGOSH THIS IS SO SUPER EXCITING – I’m going to do it for A WHOLE MONTH.” Yeah – that project.

I’m just a conscience so I won’t tell you this was a great idea in theory but a crap idea at the beginning of a semester – no no – I’ll just stick to what is RIGHT and what is WRONG. Ok ok – actually I’m just going to stick with what is WRONG.

Umm Hello?? Who woke up on the crabby side of the bed today?? And then blared “hot dog” by Limp Bizkit on repeat because it’s a REALLY angry song?? I know – you listened to Linkin Park, NIN and Papa Roach too … but you get what I’m saying.

Today’s task was ” … is not about escaping from your daily routine; it’s about developing a more spiritual approach to what you must do.”

Now tell me Daisy – do you think Limp Bizkit and hearing the F word screamed like 40 kajillionbillion times helped you develop a more spiritual approach??

Moving on … I was proud of you for answering the phone when No. Sydney called – but you could have handled the fact THAT HE ONLY CALLED YOU BECAUSE HE NEEDED TECHNICAL WEB HELP better. Did you REALLY need to switch to depressing music and listen to THAT on repeat too??

I think you went into today’s horoscope with a negative attitude (for proof please see your post yesterday) AAANNNDDD I think you shouldn’t do that again. You’re never going to achieve the random wisdom/growth you were hoping a project like this could provide give you if you HAVE A BAD ATTITUDE!!!

SHAPE UP!!

Sincerely yours,

~Your Conscience

HOLY CRAP is my conscience mean or what?? So to help me snap out of my funk – I went to class and really tried to EXPERIENCE class. My teacher is crazy – I took lots of notes – and I even played a game of Hangman – why? Because life is about living, loving and laughing :) And living means being PRESENT – so I was present in class – and felt the feelings of the first day of school, noticed my friends in class, remembered what it felt like to be in high school. And when I took a bathroom break and had to walk down a long corridor which was TWENTY DEGREES COLDER than my classroom – then walk down a weird dingy and poorly lit staircase to get to the bathroom … and when inside of the bathroom it was dark, old and there were small child sized watering cans in every stall … and the water to wash up was placed at a level below my knees … I experienced it. I imagined the ghosts haunting the halls – I shivered – I lived.

Today did have a rough start. And to be honest – it’s had a rough ending as well. But I FELT my day today. And as much as my conscience would like to say I did a half-assed job – at the end of the day I think experiencing life at a heightened sense of perception/observation/feeling surprisingly satisfies my horoscope.

Today – I LIVED

for better and for worse.

Day 5/365

Day 4 – Some much needed ME time

Posted on August 4, 2009 by Daisy

TODAY’s horoscope

You may become less confident as the day wears on, especially if you must show up at a big social event. But if you are able to steal away for a while, then you can emerge from your mini-retreat revitalized and ready to go back out for another round of battles with the status quo. Don’t be afraid of your own power, even if you think it’s wiser to wait for the right time to act.

Annnddd yahoo.com’s said something about taking time for myself and writing a list of “to dos”….

LESS CONFIDENT

I was pretty confident about life this morning but as luck would have it (or more likely as my subconscious would have it because I had already read the above horoscope) I DID lose confidence in myself as the day wore on. WHAT?? Why would I ever do a thing like that?

Prolly because I realized I’m in some suck classes, the camera adds 10 lbs, I stuttered on TV today and I ran into TWO professors who gave me the pity look because they know about my stupid special consideration and swine flu last semester.

Yeah – that could be why.

Some ME Time

I was kind of excited that my horoscope encouraged a little ME time today but I wasn’t sure how I was going to fit it in – I had a full schedule today!! After my first class I decided to skip class #2 because it sucks and I’m going to change it for a different one anyway … and I had a choice:

BUS OR WALK??

WALK of course!! Why? Because walking is ME time!! YAY!!! So I walked from Uni to Central and did some thinking – lots of thinking. Mostly about the pavement, the cars driving by, the hotties in business suits – but ALSO about Uni, my list of things to do – and ok – that was about all. Unless you count trying to decide whether or not to text/sms No. Syd and tell him about my day’s adventures as thinking – if you do? well then I thought about that a lot too.

I decided to text him – and got no reply. And not that I’m getting ready to throw in the towel or anything but seriously – EVERY TIME I DECIDE I LIKE A GUY IT ENDS WITHIN LIKE A WEEK. So I wouldn’t be terribly surprised if the Love Gods out there put a jinx on this whole thing – aw well. Time will tell.

No backing out now!!

Even if things don’t work with No. Syd guess what? I meant what I said about the taking a chance thing – no more negative nancy from me about relationships. I am ready to put myself on the line – it may take a REALLY LONG time before I find someone that I want to commit to – it may take a REALLY LONG time before I start dating again … but I’m not going to be actively AGAINST it like I was. In fact! I even replied to Adorable Boy’s (he was the reason I went on the cruise where I met CC+4) email today. He wants to come visit. I told him that’d be great. And you know what will happen if Adorable Boy comes out to visit? hee hee. SPARKS WILL FLY! :)

I HATE TOMORROW’s HOROSCOPE

I just want everyone to know that I already hate tomorrow’s horoscope. WHY?? Because it is going to require super extra effort on my part to make it come true. The task?? Find meaning in the mundane things you do. And after the 2 page long TO DO list I made today of MUNDANE SUCK THINGS TO DO!!! Tomorrow is DEFINITELY going to be a challenge.

But the joy is in the challenge right?? :)

Day 3 – I’ve got my relationship priorities all wrong

Posted on August 3, 2009 by Daisy

HOROSCOPE Day 3

Others may seem particularly critical of your work today, yet you could still learn from what they say. Unfortunately, your first impulse might be to reject their advice because of your own issues of self-esteem. But if you can get over your insecurity, you’ll see that the new information can help you accomplish your goals. This is not about competition; if you win, then everyone else wins, too

Making it happen

Living the reclusive life that I lead – it’s difficult to get helpful criticism on a day that I spend completely alone. Sure I went for a walk around Bondi – got a couple kms in to be healthy – yes I texted a few people and even spoke with my FM on the phone when SURPRISE the landlords came by and caught me pop lock and droppin it to some hip hop wearing only my undies!!! AAANNNDDDD I needed to know how long they were going to stand in front of my window so that I could muster up the courage come out from hiding under the covers. Yeeeaaahhhh…. but other than that – I was pretty alone the whole day.

So how could I make my horoscope come true today?? Well short of ASKING for criticism (which then becomes feedback) I decided to pick up one of my lovely self-help books and find out what I’m doing wrong. Turns out – it’s quite a bit!!

WHAT DO THE CRITICS SAY?

The critics say I rush into physical closeness and don’t commit or rely on my “partners” enough.

RELATIONSHIPS ARE A BALANCING ACT

The experts agree there are 5 important areas of progression within a relationship and you should keep these fairly balanced.

Knowledge of each other (getting to know one another)
Trust
Reliance
Commitment
Physical Intimacy

Want to know why I always score a major FAIL in relationships? Because I jump straight to building #5. Having an abundance of #5 creates a blind eye to #1 and #2 and as a result I am too scared to do #3 or #4. Pretty messed up – but if you read the book it makes total sense.

So yeah … today was a bit less eventful but mostly because I’m too lazy to type up more – I really did learn a lot about destructive patterns of behavior, using your heart AND your mind to make relationship choices and yeah – my horoscope came true again today.

TOMORROW – I’m supposed to take a little mini me-break in the afternoon and write down some “to do” items. I wish I weren’t so tired – but hopefully tomorrow I can give you a full update. :)

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