It’s been awhile. Like over-a-week-awhile. Like the longest-I’ve-ever-gone-without-blogging-while. Not a good thing. What’s happened in the last 11 days?? A whole lot of not a whole lot. Yeah – that’s right.
First I had an assignment due – a big one. That was due 2 weeks ago. I still haven’t handed it in. Things haven’t been going as smoothly as hoped.
Day 20, 21 & 22- when I was still optimistic about my essay
Day 23 and 24 – Remember how I decided no more kissing North Sydney because HE IS A COMMITMENTPHOBE who FREAKS OUT every time HE kisses me!?!? Yeah – that didn’t last long. And then I went to my international adviser and she told me that she struggling to try and work with me because I’m smarter than her and my life is very complicated. Gee – that’s encouraging. (insert glare.)
Day 25 and 26 - I think it was about THIS point in my life when I discovered North Sydney didn’t remember ANYTHING about our meeting, his “stalk you later” phone calls and our very brief romance a year ago. I very bluntly called this to his attention. :) He tried to kiss and make up – I rolled my eyes and laughed. Then I tried to do my essay and fell asleep over and over again. Oh and I discovered I can tell the difference between fresh and not-as-fresh M&Ms. oh yes.
Day 27 – I went and met with the adviser again and this time she was more encouraging. We determined that I’m having issues with essay writing because of my first semester as a graduate student when I had a super nasty teacher who used her dislike of my nationality to influence the marks she gave me. As a straight 95% and above student my whole life – I lost all confidence in my ability to be a student after I received her grades and this lack of confidence is a detriment to my current studies. :( We agreed that discrimination and racism are out of my control and I need to try and move forward. I decided to study in the park under the bright and beautiful sun.
Day 28 - I actually went to class – instead of staying home sick like I did the rest of the week. Class was REALLY good – I’m in the process of animating a girl on a swing set. It’s a lot of fun and I can do it for hours and hours without getting bored. A BIG relief from essay writing.
Day 29 and 30 – I’ve had insomnia like no other the past couple of weeks. “Bones” the television series has become my nightly insomnia treatment. It also makes for great dreams. I’ve never been a better crime fighter/super hero/pretend anthropologist in my life. :) lol.
Day 31 – One month down – 12 more to go.
It means “I love you” in sign language. I might have accidentally kind of said something that would indicate the possibility that I COULD be in love with North Sydney. I didn’t mean to!! It slipped out!!!
He said- “You need to have kids. You will be a great mom.” (a nice compliment bcuz he has a child.)
I said – “Yeah but finding the right guy is going to be next to impossible. I think I’ll just settle with my dogs – they’re like my kids.”
He laughed and said, “You’re getting close. If you mix CC+4 with -3 you’d almost get the perfect man for you.”
I said, “Yeah but I’m never going to meet someone who is perfect and there isn’t going to be a guy out there who is a cross between all the good of CC+4 and all the good of -3.”
He said, “You never know…”
I said, “What I really need is just to find the American version of you – then I’d be set.”
I CAN’T BELIEVE I SAID THAT!!!
I told my flatmate that I couldn’t believe I let that one slip out!!! North Sydney gets scared off every time he kisses me – and then I tell him he’s like the perfect guy for me?? My flatmate said, “Yeah but do you feel that way?” I said – “Yes.” And my flatmate said, “Well then you told the truth. You shouldn’t be worried about it.”
He’s right. I told the truth. And fortunately for me – North Sydney DIDN’T freak out – he just took it as a compliment – and things are the same as always. :)
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First off I’m in love with your photos. Keep ‘em coming!!!
Second, I’m glad you got it out there to NS because if you do like him and he is a good guy for you then go for it!
I’m loving this 365 project! You’re doing great at keeping them interesting :)
Oh North Syd, he is such drama! I’m glad he didn’t freak out again… a step in the right direction? (Dare I say maturity? …mmm maybe not).
I love, love day 24 and 25 – little orange riding hood and your swept up hairdo reminiscent of old hollywood ;) excited to see what happens with this new boy! xoxo
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Okay, I’ll try again..
Everytime I think of saying to a blogger “Hey, you, what’s with the no blogging?” I come online and there’s a blog from them. It ruins my fun.
I had two English teachers who discriminated against me because of my gender. In years 7,8,11 and 12 English I got A’s and B’s.. in years 9 and 10 Cs & Ds. One of them even said to us flat out one day “Males never get good marks in English because they don’t understand the creative process like females do”.. I couldn’t go to the coordinator about her either because she was the coordinator.
Discrimination in any form sucks, but in something as important as your education I think teachers need to be professional and mark everyone fairly, because an otherwise good student getting poor marks no matter how hard they work does affect them. It affected me big time.
And now that I’ve given my lecture on discrimination it’s my turn to discriminate.. against males, because i’m a male I’m allowed to. That’s how it works.
I don’t think many males would have realised EXACTLY what you’d said when you said what you said to North Sydney. They’d just take the compliment and be pretty pleased, not getting that you’d called them a perfect match for you. I know I didn’t understand it until you explained.
you are beautiful! Always dig your photos!
And i’m glad things with you and NS are ok! ^_^ blog more!!!miss hearing about your life!