I haven’t turned in my law school applications yet.    4 years ago when I was super jazzed about law school I turned all of my applications in early, got accepted and then didn’t go.  Uh huh.  That’s exactly right.

Then every single year since then I’ve thought, “Maybe I should finally go…” but then never do.

It makes me wonder if I really even want to go!!  I think I do all of the time.  But I also feel like if it were really that important to me – would I be procrastinating turning in the applications?  When I gave the University of Sydney full consideration I turned my application in that VERY DAY!  (granted it was due in like a week but even still …)  And then I planned and coordinated a move across the WORLD in less than one month.  Oh wow – my life was so hectic!!!

So is it that I need pressure and deadlines?  Or is it that I don’t really want to go?  I’m just not sure what else to do with my life.  It makes sense.  I feel confident that I would excel in law.  It’s just … well … shouldn’t going to law school be Plan A not Plan B?

I really felt that moving to Sydney was the right decision.  I felt it in my heart (and I don’t care if that sounds cheesy!)  But I did it for school and that didn’t turn out as well as I hoped.  So do I take this in stride?  Trust the instinct that I should be there and just stick it out and see what happens?  Or jump ship and move back to the U.S. in a few months?

When I put the option to myself THAT way of course I’m like, “Well I’m not a quitter!” but when I think of wasting time and money on an education that I’m not in love with – things change.

I’ve applied to change my major at Sydney Uni.   And now – do I apply to law schools again in the meantime?  I guess it never hurts to keep your options open.  But I can’t help wondering why I would rather sit and watch paint dry than work on the applications.

oh and p.s. – my dad found out about the thing in my wall through my blog (LOL!) and thinks it’s a mouse.  He will be taking care of it shortly.  YAY for me!  My dad rocks!

Oh and I have been super slack about the picture a day thing – oops!  And ScottPete and I have decided to do writing prompts again.  I love it!  We think about things so differently – it’s great!  You can read each of our different versions of “A bad dude in a cowboy hat walks into the saloon of a really bad western movie.  He looks dangerous and mad.  Tell what happens and create a happy ending” HERE.