Love Locked Down

Ever hear a song and feel they took the words right out of your mouth?  (except for the bad grammar?)

This does not apply to MIUB  – no no – this song applies to a very different boy.   One whom I never talk about in this way because – well – I put my feelings for him under lock and key.  But the fact of the matter is I’ve liked him for ages and ages and ages – since March – which is ages and ages and ages.

I’m through being secretive about it because I can’t get him out of my head and I’m fairly positive he doesn’t read my blog (knock on wood.)  Seriously – what good is a public semi-diary blog if I can’t post my secret feelings? lol – I crack myself up.  But for real – this is where I vent my feelings and I’ve got a whole heap/load/ton of them for him.

I’m not lovin’ you the way I wanted to.
What I had to do – had to run from you.
I’m in love with you but the vibe is wrong and that haunted me…

So you’ll never know, never never know, til it’s over…

I’m not lovin’ you the way I wanted to.
See I wanna move but can’t escape from you.
So I keep it low.
Keep a secret code so everybody else don’t have to know …

I can’t keep my cool …

I got somethin’ to lose so I gotta move.
I can’t keep myself and still keep you too.

I’m not lovin’ you the way I wanted to.
See, I had to go.
See, I had to move…

I’m not lovin’ you the way I wanted to.
I bet no one knew I got no one new.
Know,
I said I’m through but got love for you.

But I’m not lovin you the way I wanted to.
Gotta keep it gone.
Keep the lovin’ going.
Keep it on a roll.
Only god knows if I be with you.

Baby I’m confused.
You choose.
You choose.

I’m not lovin you, the way I wanted to.
Where I want to go I don’t need you.
I been on this road, too many times before.

Kanye West – Love Lockdown